No Longer Human

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Fyodor won.

They lost.

There are no abilities in this world anymore .

No Armed Detective Agency.

No Port Mafia.

No Guild.

Just simple humans.

Except Dazai who was no longer human.

But wait , when was he a human in the first place ?
He never considered himself a human . That's why , he always had that feeling that he didn't belong to this world .... yeah , this world wasn't for him . And now that he has no ability , he feels even less human . Even when Akutagawa still looked up at him . Even when Atsushi idolized him for him being his life savor . Even when Kunikida still believed in him while he's such a jerk . Even when Ango always made him remember those times when he had feelings .
Even when Chuuya forgave him and still tells him "Dazai , you are a human" . But Dazai couldn't believe him . He couldn't understand them ? How could they see a human in him when he was just a ...... . Even him couldn't fill the gap . Even him didn't know himself .
"This world gives a reason to live to humans ," he told himself , "and i am no longer human ... " . How could the name of his ability fit him this much ?
He always thought and rethought that it was him who should have died not ... Odasaku . Odasaku belonged to this world , he didn't . Odasaku was a human , he wasn't . Odasaku had a reason to live , how could he have such a thing ? Odasaku should have lived , he should have died .
At this rate , he couldn't even count how many times he tried to commit suicide , but for some reason , he never succeed . Fate was against him , this world was against him . That was just a proof that this world wasn't for him . So why does it still wanted him here then ??
Fortunately for him , unfortunately for the ones who loved him , the world didn't want him there anymore ... he finally succeed ... he finally died ... he finally went out of this world that he didn't belong to ... his soul looked around , it looked down at his body . So pitiful ... he feels pity towards his body . He feels pity towards the one he was . He feels pity . He feels ... and humans feel . Did he just become human ? Now that he left this world ? But it was already too late . He already knows that where he's heading wasn't for him . Because where he's heading there are no humans ... and now he is a human ... is he meant to suffer for the eternity ? Maybe he did something in his previous lifes that now he deserves such a punishment ... he doesn't care anymore .

He looks around him one last time .
Atsushi wasn't there to save him by mistake .
Akutagawa wasn't there to force him to live .
Odasaku wasn't there to ask him to live .
But Chuuya ... Chuuya was there ...
Chuuya was late ...
Chuuya looks at the corpse in front of him ...
Chuuya cries ...

Dazai regrets .

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