I've been pretty depressed lately so I'm gonna write a sad one. And I'm writing this instead of my English paper. So this may be really upsetting to some of you. I know that I'm kinda pouring something into this I guess. Also, I'm kinda getting an idea of a good imagine from the movie Cyberbully from ABC. That movie gets me in my feels so much omg.
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Joe knew that you have had lots of rough times. Joe knows that you have your bad days. But he has never seen you get this bad.
All the hate got to you so easily. It's so hard to love yourself when you know that no one else does. Joe knows that you feel like you're never good enough. Joe has tried to help you. And he usually does a good job. But today, today was your breaking point.
Joe had a few meetings throughout the day so you were stuck at home with your feelings. You went to watch a couple of old videos of you and Joe together. They were so lovely. Until you got to the comments. That broke you. You sat and cried. Unable to do anything else except sit there and shake from all of the rigid sobs coming from your body.
Joe had tried to call you after his last meeting. You didn't pick up. So he texted you instead.
"Are you home?" He texted you
"Mhm.." you responded. Joe knows that when you use two dots at the end of a sentence that you're having a rough time.
"I'm coming home. Right now." He said. You could sense his worry.
You sat there and shook. Unable to do anything other than shiver. It had been so hard for you recently. Joe knows that.
You decided that it was finally time to go. You didn't want to be here anymore. You ran to the bathroom. Opening the cabinet above the sink. You took out the strongest medicine in the cabinet. You heard Joe's keys jingle in the door. You rushed to get the bottle open. You couldn't. You heard Joe running frantically to find you. He busted open the bathroom door and found you on the floor sobbing. Trying to open the pill bottle. He ripped it from your hands and threw it across the room. His eyes filled with tears. He plopped down into the bathroom floor next to you and cradled you as you sobbed into his shoulder "I want to die". He held you there for the longest time.
Once you were unable to cry anymore, Joe nudged you to move your head back so he could look into your bloodshot eyes.
"Y/n, I'm here to help you. But you need to trust me enough to tell me. I know that you have trust issues, but i can't see you like this anymore. I need the old y/n back. I worry so much about you. I care so much about you. I can't lose you." He began to cry. You leaned your head back into his neck and he cradled you some more. His embrace was so warm. You never wanted to leave. You knew you were safe in Joe's arms, but not your own.
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Some of you guys should add me on snapchat and snapchat me all day tomorrow bc I've had such a rough year already and I need more people to talk to and I love all of you guys and you all always seem to make me feel better. My snapchat username is @/ebemily
