My therapist once asked me, "What are you most afraid of?"
Him, I thought. Looking in the mirror and seeing him more and more, breathing and talking and thinking like he did. Letting what I didn't know he was overcome me, possess me, while there's nothing I can do about it. Feeling so afraid of being left that I leave myself, just like he did.
Instead, the words that left my lips were: "Death, I guess?"
But isn't it funny that they stand for the same things? Him and Death are very different words with very similar meanings. My life didn't start that day, I didn't have a new beginning or a rebirth of my mind - I died. Somewhere inside me hopes he did, too.
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