I just want to cry.
I feel like just dissipating and never being again.
I'm thinking about you and who we were.
I'm thinking about who we used to be.
And the tears come.
Running down my cheek on repeat reminding of you've done.
And the tears fall.
Showing me that I obviously wasn't worth anything at all.
That two years of being there for you whenever you needed someone to cry to.
I am not worth shit to you now.
I am worth nothing until you need me again.
I am worth nothing until you want me again.
I was always the one, standing there holding you up keeping you stable.
Even when my whole world was falling apart.
Even when death was on my mind.
I didn't care about myself.
I cared for you.
I held you up, I kept you alive as least that's what I thought.
And the tears drop.
I am crying my heart out laying in bed listening to that really sad song that I would probably kill myself to.
And the tears wail.
"oh I was thinking about killing myself"
That phase spins in my mind.
I told you about my battle with my thoughts that one time when I was drunk and needed a friend.
You ignored me.
And the tears drip.
I am worth nothing to you.
This is the last time I make the mistake of trusting again.
ESTÁS LEYENDO
Midnight Thoughts
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