William - Louis Tomlinson Fanfic

Ch 31

Jamie’s POV:

He furrowed his brows like he didn’t know what I’m talking about. I’m sure it’s William. For the past few months that we’re together, I’ve memorized him so there’s no doubt that he’s the guy standing right in front of me.

“Sorry, what?”

“You,” I pointed him my index finger. “You’re William.” He shook his head no.

“Who’s William?” He asked. “I’m not William.” He shook his head as he chuckled lightly. “I’m Sean.” He out reach his hand for me to shake but I refused. I crossed my arms and furrowed my brows. I may look tough but tears are threatening to fall.

“Stop lying! I know it’s you.” My voice was shaking and I almost crack on the last word. “If you still hate me, then I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” I clutched his arms and looked at the ground. I can’t look at him. I don’t know but I just can’t right now. “If I only knew that you’re not really my brother.”

“I- I don’t know what you’re talking about. So if you,” he pushed my lightly. “I need to go. I have a meeting and I think I’m late. I’m sorry.” I looked up at him for a bit, just examining his features. He’d changed a bit. He looks professional even in just a blue button-up shirt. It’s long sleeved but he curled it up to his elbows. He doesn’t wear lip rings anymore; just black a black circular earring on his left one.  

He’s still the guy who wears skinny jeans and has tattoos on his arms and But he’s wearing glasses now. I wonder why. I don’t think he didn’t like guys who wear glasses before as he thinks they’re nerdy or something. But after all, he’s still hot. He doesn’t fail to impress me with his outfits. I don’t know, I think it’s just him.

Before he could turn around, I pulled his left arm. “Please. Don’t say you’re not William. I-” tears dropped from my ears but he’s not even affected. “I love you.” I said quietly as I look down. Not because I’m ashamed, but because I don’t think those words will be replied back. I don’t think that he still love me.

“I’m sorry, but,” he swiped my hands away from him. It hurts, so much. “I don’t really know you. So, would you please?” He snapped. The world stopped for me. Even if we argue before, it feels like new to me again. It hurts so much that I feel like he’s building up walls on us and he doesn’t want me in his life anymore.

I wiped the tears as we parted ways. I think I haven’t really moved on. I thought I won’t cry for him anymore, but what am I doing? I’m still crying over a boy who doesn’t give a damn on me now. He moved on. Me? I don’t know. I don’t think I will love again. I’m tired of being hurt. Maybe it’s the time for me to just be by myself and forget the world.

“Do you need help?” A guy asked. I found myself just standing in front of the hotel I’m staying at. I looked up at him to be met by a brown- eyed lad. He’s taller than me, maybe 5”8 or something. He’s tan and it matches his brunette hair. “I won’t bite.” He chuckled. “I just don’t like pretty girls crying.” I blushed on his words. He may not say it directly but I know he’s complimenting me. “Are you okay?” He handed me a handkerchief.

I nodded as I accepted the cloth and thanked the guy in front of me as well. “I’m okay.” There’s no way I would tell this stranger my problem. Yes, I need to let things out, but not to a stranger. I don’t think he could relate to the things I will say as he don’ even know me, either William.

He sighed. “Fine, I’m Alex. And you’re?”

“Jamie.”

He ran his hands through his hair. “Is that Mr. Sean Tomlinson you’re just talking to?” He asked and I frowned. He knows him?

“Sean?”

I remember William telling me his name was Sean. Why is he even lying to me? If he doesn’t like me in his life anymore, he should tell so that I won’t waste my nights thinking if he really doesn’t. It may hurt but at least, I won’t have the reason to hate him.

“Yeah. Sean Tomlinson. He’s my boss.”

“He’s not Sean. He’s William.” I argued back. I hated hearing lies of these people.

I heard him huff. “Whatever. But they say his name is Sean Tomlinson.” I rolled my eyes. “I think he’s from London and his brother is that Lewis Tomlinson.”

“Louis.” I corrected. Louis is still a friend, I think. So I need to defend him even if it’s just his name. I may sound corny but friends are treasures to me. They may not love me as like I do, but still I will love them whatever it takes and wherever they are.

“Sure. But I think he had amnesia because of a car accident. He went to America for his operations. Good thing he survived. I think he was comatose for a year or something. But I don’t know if he remembers now.” All I could do is listening. I was loss for words. I don’t know what to say.

“So, how did he get there?” the question was stuck on my mind as he was talking a while back. How did he get here if he got operated in US?

“I don’t know. Why are you so interested?” he chuckled and I shook my head.

“Nothing.”

When I go back in my hotel room, I found myself standing in front of the mirror on the bathroom. I don’t know but I’m just staring at myself and studying my features. My straight hair was gone as now it looks slightly curled. I got bit taller but curvier. I caressed my tan skin. I’m tan now as I joined volleyball on class last month before I get here in Singapore. My eyes, they’re still the blue ones.

Am I not William’s ideal girl that he doesn’t want me in his life anymore? Or is it because he forgot about me because he has amnesia? I don’t know what to think. I shouldn’t think about these. Maybe if his memory came back, he won’t like me anymore. I’m just this ugly girl who doesn’t even know where her parents were. Maybe he’s mad at me that instead of he’s the one being took care by dad, it was me, that, I’m the one who he spent days with.

I opened my door to find a girl and a boy with my age making out in front of me. I’m not affected with them. I shouldn’t be. But when I realized that it was William with another girl that isn’t me, my heart shattered into pieces.

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Ily, Trisha xx