Tanthony[tesssa brooks +Anthony Trujillo]

Part 35

Tessas p.o.v: I woke up to Jake chance and Anthony awake talking ,yes I have bin depressed since my mom died,even more about Anthony to add on to it,to be honest I've been to depressed.

Chance:morning 

Tessa:morning 

As I sit up,I grab my phone and I see a text from Erika💝

Erika💝-I'm leaving in 5 to the house see ya in a minute xx

Me-see ya x

I turn my attention to the guys,when I see Anthony everything comes back, even though I hugged him last night,it doesn't mean I'm over it. All I want is my mom and to tell her everything but I can't,she's gone.

I grab my phone again and look at videos at her so I can hear her voice,her voice the thing I've missed tears rolled down my cheek I just put my head in my hands and cry

Chance pulls me into a hug and I yell into his chest so it sounds muffled 

Tessa:I miss her so much 

Chance:I know Tess I know 

I feel someone take my phone to see,I pull out the hug to see Jake take it,he pulls me into a hug. Some more tears come,I take my phone while looking through photos of me and her,Erika comes into the room

Erika:t what's up 

She said running and jumping onto the bed to see that I was crying 

Tessa:I miss my mom

Erika pulls me into a hug 

Erika:I know your mom was so nice she was like my second mom when she visited here 

I smile at the memories of when she came to la, I decide to get my phone and call my sister,after 4 rings she picks up 

Taylor:hey 

Tessa:hey Taylor

Everyone looks at me because they know I hate my sister and my step dadafter everything what happened 

Taylor:why you calling me

Tessa:I wanted to check and see how your handling the mom situation I know u know i don't like you but you are my sister

Taylor:I'm alright I gotta go bye 

She hung up,I just put my phone down and everyone just looked at me 

Tessa:what she's the only of my mom I have I know I don't like her but if she took her own life because of it I wouldn't be able to live because of it 

Erika:good point 

Anthony kept on staring at me,I didn't like it, so I just got up and left the room,I saw he still hasn't picked up his clothes,while walking away I hear him say 

Anthony:Jessica's coming round later in about an hour

Tears fill my eyes,I run downstairs and kicked over a chair and bend down and cry,I hit the floor a million times Erika ends up coming down helping me up,I hug her and scream into her chest 

I have deep and low thoughts,some thoughts I would never thought I could ever have,sucidal thoughts.

We go back upstairs but to my room,but we decided not to because he will use this room so we went back to jakes,Anthony was in the shower

I sat down with Erika and tears fill my eyes again,I grab my phone and throw it on the bed smashing it to the bed board,Erika pulled me into a hug 

Tessa:I have to hear all that I again

Jake:oh Tess 

Anthony comes out looking bomb but looks at me I look away,look down at the bed.