Different (BTS x Reader)

Chapter 23- Last Time

"Mom..?"

It had only been a few days since she has called, and you are a little concerned as to why she wanted to suddenly speak to you. Her voice sounded almost excited, shaky -- you could feel her smile from the other end of the line.

"Your sister is getting married! Her wedding is in a week!"

All your sadness seemed to disappear for a moment as your heart raced. Her boyfriend had finally proposed to her. Even more happiness flooded your system, when you realized that it meant that you would go back to LA. You would finally be able to take a break to think about your own choices, about your feelings.

"I'll book a flight! I really want to be there for her. Does uncle know?"

"Yeah, he does!" Your mother then gasped. "Oh, and don't bother, we booked a ticket for you already. You leave in a few hours"

"O-Oh!" Your grip on the phone tightened. "Great! I'll see you soon, then."

Your mother said goodbye one last time before you cut off the phone. Now, the real question is, are you going to inform the boys about this? You decided it isn't a good idea, since their schedules are so busy. Maybe you could just send them a text before you get into your flight.

The first person you have to inform, though, is your uncle, since you are going to leave for a while. You had sent him a quick text, forwarding the same thing to your senior, before running away from the set. You have to go pack now if you want to make it on time.

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"(Y/N)???"

V had looked everywhere -- after the shooting was complete -- for you, but you were nowhere to be found. He isn't the only one who is worried; the rest of them are also frantically searching the entire area for you. They had called you, texted you -- none of which you had answered.

"Have you found her?" J-Hope ran into him in the entrance.

"No..."

The boys gathered near their van soon after, all without the girl they love. The maknae line tried to hope for the best; telling themselves that maybe you are back in Big Hit. Maybe you had left with the rest of the stylists. Even though they have this mindset, their faces show guilt and deppresion. It had all disappeared though, when their phones buzzed and beeped with a notification.

'I'm going back to LA. See you guys around.'

All of them immediately tensed up in their seats, taking some time to process what you had just sent them. All of their hearts stopped at the same time, some of them feeling like it just shattered into a million pieces. You should have been more specific. They all legitimately thought you are leaving for good. The worst part is, you didn't even say goodbye.

"She's gone..." Suga muttered.

"She can't just leave like that!" Jungkook argued. "I'm sure she has a reason..."

They are all blaming themselves. Right after you had taken that last kiss, you had left the scene. They all assumed you are now completely afraid of getting hurt, or hurting them. After all, they had all made a move on you; they are aware how much you care about them, and wanted to keep them happy. They want the same for you as well and so much more. They all love you.

"We should ask PD-nim tomorrow," Namjoon stated, after a few moments of thinking. "He might know the reason she left."

"Right..."

All the boys nodded, but kept their heads low. Some of them are fidgeting, biting their lips, shaking their knees -- everything to calm themselves down. If you leave forever, then the only time they would get to see you would be if they go on a tour, or if you ever come to visit. They doubted you would even visit, though. America is so far away. They won't be able to live without seeing you again; without holding you into their arms again. You have no idea how much you affected their lives.

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They couldn't sleep easy at all that night. Their eyes would flutter shut, but when they think about you, it would open up again. They wouldn't talk to each other or get out of bed.

It had already passed twelve o'clock.

Jin, Suga, Jimin, and Jungkook had fallen asleep of exhaustion. The rest of them are still staring straight onto the ceiling, eyes reflecting no light. Even V's brown irises had lost their child-like sparkle. It stayed like that, until his phone buzzed. Everyone's had, actually. But only half of them were up to look at it.

'I probably should have told you guys that I actually needed to leave urgently because of my sister's wedding. Haha. I landed in Germany, by the way. Talk to you later.'

From the next room, he heard a loud 'SERIOUSLY?!'. It sounded like Hoseok's voice. The others were too sleepy to get up from their slumber because of it. They are going to find out in the morning, and probably make some noise. V smiled his cute, close-mouthed smile, and placed his phone down as he nuzzled into the pillow. You weren't gone because of them. He is so relieved.

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"You went to America because of your sister's wedding???"

Everyone is currently on the phone with you, since you had just reached your house. Your voice is groggy, coarse, and tired. They are sitting in their recording studio, some of them having subtle pissed-off expressions. You had made them think that you left because of them, after all. You had made them panic.

"Yeah, she's getting married in a week," You said, laying on your bed, holding the phone up, since it is in speaker. "I don't know when I'm gonna come back, though."

"Come back after, (Y/N)-ie!" Taehyung whined as he leaned forward. Rap Monster pulled him back before he falls on his face.

They heard you let out an audible sigh, making them all frown. Is something wrong? They looked at each other before looking back at the iPhone on the table.

"I need some time to think, though..." You finally decided to admit it, how you felt, how they made you feel. "All of you... are such great guys. You make me so confused, though. I need time to decide what to do with my feelings."

All of them became speechless. They really did made you confused. All their hearts dropped to the pits of their stomachs as they frowned.

"(Y/N)..." Jin whispered, his voice almost apologetic.

"I'll... I'll talk to you when I get back, okay"

You were stuttering, and you heart felt like it was in your throat. To be honest, you were afraid. It was because of your ex -- celebrities could pull any girl if they really wanted to. Something told you those boys weren't like that, though. They cherish you, they cherish realtionships and love.

Before they could reply, you cutted the line and put the phone down. You need to sleep everything off and think about it. You had almost two weeks, after all -- you were planning to return a few days after the wedding. You had lied to them, only because you didn't want them to come pick you up at the airport.

You had decided that by the time you get back, you are going to decide who you are going to let your heart accept. Who you are going to go to when you needed someone the most. It is going to be one of the seven boys you had become so close to with in the span of almost a full year.

They just need to be ready to accept the winner.

They tell themselves they are, but sometimes, they feel like they don't want to know. Each of them wanted to be happy, but they know a small part of them would break. The boys know that eventually, they would be happy for you and your significant other, but that day is definitely...

Not Today...

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Yes, I had to. It is a great song, honestly. Again, I will be making seperate ending for each of them, and a small one-shot of your realationship.