Ephemeral

Special Chapter: Rough Lullabies

Records retrieved from former Queen Iris Anais Rossendeau's lost diary.
Diary entry date: Unknown
Location: Varialis Castle, Milan, Italy
Founded by: Unknown
Date founded: 13 March 2016
Founded at: Rezoir Castle's Queen's Garden, Versailles, Yvelines, France
Number of entries founded: Five
Time founded: 10:38pm
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First Entry:

11:59pm
Milan, Italy

It was a wintry night at the month of December.

Father brought me with him because he is going to host a ball for Count Kalixto's birthday.

The party was very pretty and I couldn't help but to be amazed by their colorful garbs and elegant masks.

Though, I was only 8 years old. I love to attend parties.

Parties are nice and they make me happy.

But later that night, I was so surprised when father came to my room weeping.

I hide the book under my pillow and rushed to his side.

This is the first time he hugged me and I feel so glad, he even said he needs me and I am the one who can only fulfill his needs.

I don't understand what he meant about that yet, but I was taken aback when he suddenly tied a cloth around my lips.

The grin in his face is enough to make me tremble, I wanted to scream and cry but I cannot do anything as he touch me to places that I couldn't understand.

He said Hellios shouldn't know about this but I am so afraid.

Hellios, where are you? I am scared.

- Ira.
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Second Entry:

10:34pm

I feel numb and lifeless and helpless. I cannot put into words what happened last night.

I am burning in fever but I still feel the need to write all of this. I want to show them to Hellios.

It was the second night father came to my room again. I beg for him to stop but he is not listening.

He was like a wildcat in heat when he tear me up like a piece of meat while I whimper in pain under him.

I am 8 years old and I don't understand why is this happening to me.

Hellios, please come back.

- Ira.
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Third Entry:

9:36pm

My fever is getting worst and there is no healer coming to my room.

I decided to hide under my bed, to hide away from father. But it is useless, he pulled me up and he tossed me on the bed violently.

My head hits the wooden headboard and I feel dizzy. He is grinning again as he crawls towards me.

He is a monster.

My body feel so weak and he still violated me like I am not his own child.

He said I am the reason why my mother died so I should suffer for eternity.

Is this all my fault?

Hellios, is it my fault why am I in this situation?

- Ira.
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Fourth Entry

8:45pm

He brought a knife with him this time.

I couldn't even speak a single word while he pointed the knife against my throat.

Too afraid that he might ended up killing me, I did not even dare to move any single muscle while he pleasure his self.

My frail form is already numb that I couldn't careless what he wants to do with me anymore.

I just realized, I am all alone this time.

- Ira.
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Fifth Entry:

7:00am

Ice.

I finally discovered my own power as anger surge within me like an avalanche in a blizzard.

Days passed when father went back to France while he left me here in our estate in Italy.

I still don't heard a news from Hellios, but I sincerely hope he come back.

I trained myself with Claudius and I finally learned how to defend myself.

He don't understand why I want to do this when I should enjoy being a child.

How can I enjoy this life when I feel so broken and lost.

My childhood is ruined when my father took my innocence away and he treated me like I am a garbage.

This is all because I am a woman. Just like he said.

But I will never stop till I get my revenge.

At the age of 8 years old, my mind is clouded of violence and my purity was already tainted.

I have nothing left to lose.

Nothing.

- Ira.

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End of entries.
Retriever's initials: Unknown

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A/N: End of Special Chapter. After I am done with all of Absolution's chapters I'll write a Special Chapter too but it is different from this one.