O' I take Emotion

Poem 38

What level have I sunken too

that my words bounce of and are received with glares

I give advice and want their perspective

and am just told that I’m too stuck in my mindset

I want only to help their intelligence

yet they treat me as if I lack intelligence

I care and want to help

yet they treat me as if I am out to harm

So smart so much potential

so great

yet do they realize the pain that they place at their feet

I want to carry them or guide them

yet they would rather walk over the traps that I point out

I am I wrong to call them smart

and intelligent

if they won't listen to what I have to say

and just glare at me with disdain

I know I miss the obvious

I know I'm clueless at times

yet is this it

I don't know

I ask I be getting I plead for somebody to point it out to me

I don't want to press the point if I'm wrong

and just there and hurting them

with my failure

yet nobody will answer me

nobody will show me my flaw

my argument is now made in fear and haste

and I hate the failings I've had

for now I think I know the reason for their disdain

I hurt her previously

and I try to mend it

every chance every breath I try to heal it

yet she beats me with the fact that it was my fault

so now she takes my advice with disdain

my hope is crushed with her look

my hope that she was just shy of genius

yet it seems within her genus

to be this way

I was just too enamored to see this

and though I still hope for the future

a part of me has broken

a part of my heart she didn't return

I don't blame her

I just wish I didn't do this to ourselves

I'm sorry

and hope and want you to be all that you can be

and more

yet sadly due to timing

something that should have been only somewhat impactful

is now a life altering influence

I'm so sorry

but I do what I can to help

yet I know I have only myself to blame

for her not listening

and it changing her life

oh I'm so sorry

I do what I can to help all who I can

and this includes you far more than the rest

yet I can't make you do anything

and so I give you what I can

and I'm sorry you have to take it and break it on

the part of the heart I never took back

that I should have

I'm sorry