Sander Sides One Shots

Puzzle {Logicality}

Logicality
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What's it like being different?

Being someone who can't feel emotions, well, who doesn't want to feel emotions. Emotions are good, but they are bad. People say too much of a good thing is bad. But is none of it at all, good? The small pulls of heart strings to the love struck look. Each one represting a different feeling, each one with two endings.

Heartbreak

Or

Soulmate

Everyone would rather have a soulmate than a heartbreak. Everyone wants the good ending. Who wouldn't want the good ending? Why would someone want a bad ending? Why would someone hurt themselves in that way, deliberately? Even if you are alone, you don't want to be hurt. At all.

So why does the world enforce that upon us when we don't want it?

Because with no heartbreak there is no soulmate.

With no soulmate there is always heartbreak.

Each ending balances one another. Yin and yang if you must.

A hand slid into mine, intertwining our hands together. The sudden warmth flooding into my hand, a small smile crossing my features. I could feel my face flush, all my thoughts crashing together. I didn't understand this feeling. Everytime this happened, my heart beat would speed up, a weird feeling developed in my stomach.

I so badly want to know what this feeling is. But then I don't.

What if it leads to a bad ending? Even if I don't understand emotions, I don't want to be hurt.

What if he doesn't feel the same as I do? What if this is a one sided feeling? What if this feeling isn't normal? What if-

He leaned his head on my shoulder, snuggling into the crook of my neck. The hot air sending chills down my spine, his hair tickling me slightly. Everytime he did this, I felt my mind ease. The clutter vanishing into thin air. Because he is all that mattered to me in this moment.

This is like a puzzle. Each piece fitting together to create a story. Each piece is slowly found over time. And once each piece is put together. You find your ending. Hopefully a good one or dreadfully a bad one.

And right now, I feel as if I am almost done with the first puzzle.

But.

One piece is missing.

The one piece that is keeping me from finding my ending. The one piece that my mind can't find. The one piece missing from my life. What is the one piece? What is keeping me from completing this-

A soft kiss is placed on my jawline, the action sending tingles through my body. I can feel my cheeks burn up, my heart skipping a beat. (Which should be impossible.) And a soft whisper cutting through the air.

"I love you, Logan"

And the piece appears.

And the puzzle is finished.