Hockey Imagines

Reilly Smith Imagine

You don’t know how long you sat there on the side of the tub staring at the pregnancy test in your hand. The little blue plus sign was staring you in the face and you were terrified of it. Reilly and you had only been going out for a few months and you made sure you were safe every time. Except for that one night you both got really drunk and the night was kind of a blur…

You didn’t know what you should do and you were terrified to tell Reilly. You thought about calling your best friend, but she was having her own life crisis right now and you didn’t want to worry her any more. You thought about calling your mom, but she would be so disappointed in you and you just couldn’t handle that right now. So, you did what you knew you had to do and dialed Reilly’s number.

“Hey, beautiful. What’s up?” he answered in a happy voice.

“Hey, Reilly, can you come over after practice today? There’s something I have to tell you.” You said, feeling like you were going to vomit right there.

“Yeah, are you ok?” he said his voice a little quieter and a lot more serious.

“Yeah, I just, there’s something we have to talk about.”

“Ok, I’ll be over right after practice.” He said sounding very worried.

You decided to take a warm shower hoping that would calm you down, instead you just stood in the shower and cried and the warm water soothed your body. You and Reilly had only been going out for a little over three months. What if he broke up with you when you told him? What if he didn’t want to be with you anymore? You weren’t ready to be a single mom, let alone a mom.

After you got out of the shower you sat on your couch and contemplated calling your best friend again. Before you could decide what to do you heard a knock on the door. You got up to answer and as you opened the door Reilly rushed in and immediately grabbed you and hugged you tightly,

“Look I don’t know what’s wrong, but I’ve felt sick since you called me. Whatever is wrong I can fix it. I’ll help you through this.” He said into your neck

His hug took you by surprise and you found yourself holding onto him tightly as tears rushed down your face again. You stood there hugging him for a few more minutes as you cried. You tried to memorize the way his body felt against yours and how you fit perfectly in his arms because you didn’t know if he would want to be near you after you told him. He pulled away and looked into your eyes as he brushed the tears from your face, “Can you please tell me what’s wrong?” He said, his eyes wet and his face full of worry.

You nodded your head and took his hand and walked him toward the couch. You both sat down and faced each other. You had recited what you were going to say to him a million times before he came over, but now that he was right in front of you you were at a loss for words.

You took a deep breath and said, “Remember about a month ago when we got really drunk at that party?”

“Yeah, so...” Reilly said looking really worried.

“Well, you know how we came home and decided to have some fun, but we didn’t use any protection…” you trailed off, hoping he would catch on.

It took him a minute, but once he realized what you were saying his face drained any trace of color in it and he sat there staring at you wide eyed and pale.

“Are you saying you’re…?”

“Yeah.” You said feeling like you were going to vomit.

Reilly didn’t say anything for the longest time. You sat next to him and you wanted to burst into tears again.

“Look, I know we haven’t been dating that long and I know that you might not want to be with me anymore, but please don’t shut down right now.”

“Why wouldn’t I want to be with you?” he said snapping out of his daze.

“I just figured you’d be freaked out or somet—“

“I’m terrified, Y/N. I’m not ready to be a dad. I don’t even know how to change a diaper, but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to be with you. We both got into this together and we’ll both figure this out together. I told you I would help you fix whatever the problem was. I meant that. We might have only been going out for three months, but I already can’t see myself with anyone else. Everything about you is so great that I don’t think there is anyone better out there. So things haven’t gone as planned, but I think we can do it. I know that if I have you with me I can get through anything. So what do you say? Do you want to do this with me?”

“But what about hockey and my schooling? What about your life and going out with the boys and all that. I don’t want to take that away from you, Reilly. I don’t—“

“We are in this together. You are giving up just as much if not more. I can give up my few days at the bar with the boys. I think we can do this, Y/N, I really do.”

“What if I’m a terrible mom and our baby hates me?” you asked, seriously concerned.

He hugged you tightly and kissed your hair, “We’re going to be alright.” He said in your ear, “All three of us.”

That made you relax and melt into him a little more. You might be too young and scared, but you knew that with Reilly around everything was going to be alright.