Lālasāmayī

Prays like that.

His most alluring smile
Attracts me unlimitedly
If I was away a million mile
I'd have walked there helplessly

But O dear Lord
You are there in my heart
Already waiting patiently
Protecting very carefully

But when I hear Your wondrous deeds
Of killing ferocious demons
As if they are pile of small toy of Yours
At times my heart fills with anxiety
O dear Lord
To my heart, You are the most dear
You are the only shelter
My only object of love
But O dear Lord
At times I overcome with this stupid fear

That I cannot even write
The thought of being bereft of Your eternal existence
Makes me feel like a spiritual suicide

Tears suddenly gushes out
As if they are pure drops of rain
I start to feel
To entrap You in a protective embrace
And I start to pray
I don't even know to whom
Maybe other Demigods?
About Your safest stay
Wherever You are
I start to pray
For them to always see Your transcendental face
To see if Your softest lotus feet
Are still softer than cloud
To see if Your smile is still enchanting
To see if You're still wandering
In Your dear forest
With Your beautiful form
So alluring
To see if You still fight with demons
And is safe and sound thereafter.

Damn, what has happened to me?
Perhaps some kind of snake has bitten my heart
That's why I'm becoming blind
You are the Supreme Lord!
The source of power of even demons!
Why do I need to fear?
About them over powering You in a fight!
Why do I need to fear?
When You're all devouring time!
Why do I need to fear?
When everything is but
Your transcendental pastime!

I shamelessly talk of the embrace
Whereas I know
I need His grace
To even take a breath!
How can I even think of the protecting embrace
For the Unlimited Personality of Godhead!

Perhaps I'm going crazy
Slowly pacing towards the pathway
Of becoming insanely in love.

But this poor heart
It knows everything
But it still prays like that
It still cries and sing
For it
You're the only Beloved
My only dream.