Don't freak out. Okay?
Sexuality is so fucking confusing and I hate it. So many fucking labels I wish they would just disappear. Truth is, idk my sexuality so don't ask.
If your wondering, yes I have kissed someone, the same person, multiple times whoops. She was a girl whoops *laughs nervously* yes a girl. True story but it happened a long time ago and I moved away so...
Yeah I've kinda been lying to everyone and I'm sorry. Like I said, I don't know I've just been questioning everything lately and it's been scary. I don't like change. I just wish people weren't fucking close minded in my town. My whole family and mostly everyone around me is Christian or catholic or just believes in something that's against the lgbtq community. As in they think that anything but Straight is a sin...
Actual conversation after I put a picture of my friend and her boyfriend (who is African American... she's white) on my Snapchat:
Aunt: so your friend is dating him right?
Me: ya so?
Aunt: you know what's wrong with dating a black person
Me: no
Uncle: YOUR NOT GONNA DO IT WERE GONNA FIND YOU A NICE RICH WHITE MAN
Me:... GOTTA BLAST......
I WALKED OUT OF THERE SO FUCKING FAST. NOW DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN BY CLOSE MINDED? IF YOUR ANYTHING BUT WHITE AND STRAIGHT IN MY HOME YOU ARE HEAVLY JUDGED BY BY AUNT AND UNCLE. BUT I WONT JUDGE SO YOUR WELCOME ANYTIME.
But you see it's not their fault. They grew up in the 60s/70s and so on and in that time basically everyone and everything was shamed. So I don't blame them, I just don't like their judgement. :/
Just thought I should start being real
~Syd
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RandomThis book is cringey, unorganized and stupid. If you wanna know what the inside of my mind looks like this is it. Sorry for your eyeballs. DONT READ IF YOU'RE NEW JUST DONT. I warned you. Cover by @AmericanPycho
