Shawn Mendes Imagines

Snow storm

Lowercase is intended for this imagine annnd also,  Im thinking about just doing Cameron Dallas book bc I kinda want to make a better one than the one I have now which is "dreams," and do a five seconds of summer imagine. I don't know bc I don't want to let you guys down. If you think I should do an actual book comment what you want it to be about and maybe even some characters names.

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the icy white snowflakes fell covering everything outside in a clean white. i looked away from the window and got out of bed. it had been about two days since i took a shower since i didn't have the energy to do anything. my body was exhausted from crying so much the past few days.

when i saw myself in the mirror i didn't even recognize myself. my eyes were swollen with bags underneath them, my hair was tangled in knots, my  face was pale, the usual rosy tone in my cheeks had disappeared. i shook my head before turning on my shower. i got undressed as the water heated up. i put my Spotify on shuffle, the song "Sorry," by halsey started playing. (A/n highly suggest you listen to that song) i stepped into the shower letting the warm water wash all the sadness and worries away.

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once i finished taking a shower i got dressed into a pair of black leggings and a red and black flannel. i brushed my hair before pulling it up into a bun. i brushed my teeth and then walked back to my bed room. as i plugged my phone into the charger i heard a knock on the door.

I opened the door to see shawn. my heart started beating rapidly in my chest. his brown eyes met mine making me want to cry again.

"i came to get the rest of my stuff." he said in a raspy voice. i opened the door more motioning for him to come in. i closed the door behind him, i didn't want to look at him. i wanted this to be over as soon as possible.

"he obviously wanted out relationship to be over." I thought to myself. i pushed the thought away before asking, "what else do you need to get?"

"some clothes and pictures." i just nodded my head before walking into the kitchen. i wanted to stay as far away from him as possible. i was starting to wash dishes when the lights started flickering. a few seconds after the flickering the power went out.

"Shawn?" I called out a little scared. Since it was around 6 pm it was pretty dark and I couldn't see anything.

"Shawn?" I called out once again as I walked out of the kitchen. Since I couldn't see where I was going to bumped into something hard. I felt someone wrap their fingers around my arm.

"I'm right here." Shawn said in a soft voice. My breathing quickened being this close to shawn. His face was inches away from mine. I found myself looking into his caramel colored eyes.

His phone vibrated causing his hands to fall from my arms. His phone screen lit up his face as he read the notification.

"Apparently there's a really bad snow storm, and all the roads are blocked off." He said putting his phone back in his pocket. I sighed.

This meant Shawn would be here for a while. I don't want to be anywhere near Shawn. I'm trying to get over him, so this won't really help. Shawn turned to walk up the stairs.

"Where are you going?" I asked confused.

"To get battle ship, duh." He said pointing his phone flashlight at me as he spoke.

"You'll be playing by yourself." I said before I started walking to the living room.

"Fine, I'll get candy land." Shawn said before going to get the game.

A few minutes later he came back down with the candy land game in his hand and something else. When he walked closer to could finally make out what he was holding.

"Where did you find that?" I asked taking the half empty vodka from his hand.

"Upstairs where we used to drink while we played games." He said opening the box and setting the game up on the table. I twisted open the cap and took a sip from the burning liquid. I will definitely be drinking more tonight.

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"Ha," I moved my piece closer to the finish, "and that my friend is how it's done." Shawn rolled his eyes and pulled the next card. He read it for a second before throwing it down.

"I'm done, you win." He said clearing the whole board off.

"Hey! You can't do that." I slurred angrily.

"I just did." He said pissing me off even more.

"You always do whatever the hell you want don't you?" I snapped out of nowhere.

"What?" He stopped putting the game up and looked up at me.

"It's always what you want, not what anybody else wants." I didn't know what I was saying. I would never say this to Shawn if I was sober.

"That's what I call fucking selfish." I said standing up from the carpet with the bottle in my hand.

"I'm not fucking selfish y/n," Shawn said standing up. I sighed and shook my head before looking up at him.

"I didn't want to break up with you, you know that." Shawn said in a deep tone. I rolled my eyes and turned away. If he didn't want to break up with me, then why did he?

"Y/n," he called after my as I walked to the kitchen. I knew he was walking behind me but I just ignore him. He grabbed my shoulder and turned me around to face him.

"If I would of done what I wanted to I wouldn't of broken up with you. It was my choice! I had to, I was doing what was best for you! I love you so fucking much, but I did what I needed to." Shawn raised his voice as he spoke. I could feel tears forming in my eyes as I listened to him.

"No shawn!" I choked out, "you did what was best for you. If you knew what was best for me you would know that you were the best for me. I'm a wreck without you, I mean look at me. I can't sleep, eat, I don't even want to get out of bed. I want to hate you, but I can't," i completely lost it. I broke down into sobs, "I can't because I love you too much."

There was a small silence between Shawn and I before he cupped my cheeks with his hands and crashed his lips on mine. He pushed me back against a wall as he kissed me. I kissed back passionately as my hands roamed up his back, his hands held my thighs since my legs were wrapped around him. The taste of his lips was something I had been craving for too long. I was so confused, but I wanted to enjoy it.

"Shawn," I pulled away for air. He started to kiss down my neck biting softly on some places. He worked his way back up and placed sweet kisses on my jawline.

"I need you y/n, I have to have you back. I love you too damn much to let you go." Shawn said with his forehead pressed against mine.

"I love you too."

Maybe that snow storm wasn't so bad.

I'm sorry that the makeout part was probably cringy as hell 😂😂