Shawn Mendes Imagines

planned

qotd: who are your favorite youtubers? 

i personally love: Shane dawson, Dolan Twins, Emma Chamberlain (I actually discovered her right before she became really popular) and ofc David Dobrik and the vlog squad, let's not bring up the break up okay?  

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i ran my fingers through my hair as my mind raced with thoughts. i never wanted any of this, the feelings, the heartache, him. i never wanted it. now here i am trying to get him off my mind on my balcony watching the sunset over the tops of trees. i looked down at my phone and bit my lip while i debated on reaching out. it was tempting, but i figured he wouldn't want to talk to me. 

i leaned over the railing and looked down at the busy street underneath me. i never planned to feel this way about him. it was supposed to be careless and no strings attached. now here i am. 

"damn it." i whispered to myself. 

"what is your problem?" i jumped when i heard his deep voice. i turned around to see shawn leaning on the doorway in a salmon colored sweatshirt and black gym shorts. 

"why the hell are you here?" i asked crossing my arms over my chest. 

"i came to get my phone charger that i left last night." shawn said pushing himself off the door frame to walk closer to me. i swallowed hard when he stopped in front of me. there was only a small space between us. 

"so are you going to tell me why the hell you were talking to yourself?" he asked in a somewhat soft voice. his brown eyes looked into mine intensely. 

"i was just thinking about some things." i shrugged and looked away from his eyes. 

"what things?" he asked placing his hands on my forearms. 

"shawn," my voice cracked, "please don't." i slipped out of his grip causing him to look at me confused.

"what is wrong?" he asked following me as i walked back into my bedroom.

"i- it's nothing," i said shaking my head. 

"you suck at lying y/n," shawn said stopping me by placing his hand on my shoulder. 

i took a deep breath and turned around, "look shawn," i met his chocolate brown eyes, "we had an agreement, we would do what we do together and never catch feelings, that was what we planned, but lately something changed." i said his face softened and his hands fell. 

"what do you mean it changed?" his tone was laced with confusion and sounded as if he was hurt. 

"i don't want to be your late night hook up shawn, i want something more. i want to know you aren't just coming over for my body, or for something you left the night before. i never planned to have feelings like this for you, but-," shawn cut me off by crashing his lips onto mine. i tensed up at first, soon i relaxed and fluttered my eyes  closed and ran my fingers through his hair. this kiss was like no other. it was full of something other than lust and hunger. 

he pulled away leaving me breathless, "will you go on a date with me?"

i laughed softly and said, "of course."