night toughts

gone

I feel so left out.

I am now just like that person that i never wanted to be. I have no one to turn to. Literally. And i am not saying this, because i am depressed or something, I actually slowly lost all my friends. And she was the last one. The one who were always by my side and the one i tought will be next to me forever.

But no. She won't.

And maybe it is better this way, but i hate this feeling. I hate knowing, that i will see her everyday, but she won't sit next to me every class, like how she used to. She won't talk to me nonstop about stupid things. She won't call me because she is bored. She won't sleep pacefully next to me and she won't snore all night.

She is gone. Or no. She is just gone from my life. From my days.

And i am just sitting here, and i don't know what to do. I am lost. I feel like someone shattered my heart into a million pieces, and i try to collect every single piece by myself. And i can't do it quickly. I need time. Or maybe, i need someone. Someone, who help me pick up the pieces. But there is no people. No one. And i don't know what will i do now.

I hope a car will just hit me, and i'll die. :)