Shades Darker | BWWM

Under His Skin ✨

After getting yelled at by Cole I decide to just keep quiet for the rest of the day. When my friends ask me why I'm so quiet I just tell them I'm thinking, and it's true. I'm thinking about me being an ugly person. I'm not that ugly of a person, am I? I mean I can be a bitch sometimes but he makes it seem like I'm always that way and I'm not.

On the other hand why should I care what he thinks of me? He means absolutely nothing to me and I'll be damned if I let him feeling some type of way cause me to feel some type of way. After receiving that lovely revelation I decide to pick my head up, no reason to bring myself down because of other people.

The last bell rings and I gather my stuff to leave. I head to my locker where I meet Queen and Jade, "Yo" I greet and they greet me back. As I put my stuff in my locker Jade and Queen talk about some party Vanessa is throwing. They talk of pulling up and I instantly decide against it. Vanessa and I still don't fuck like that, despite everybody telling us we have to stick together.

"So Kendra, you wanna go?" Queen asks and I tell her no. No explanations, no reasons why, just straight up no.

Jade pouts, "Why not? You know it's no fun when we aren't together" Closing my locker I start walking and they follow, "Sorry, I just don't want to go, I'd rather stay home and work on my college stuff"

"But, Vanessa and you were good friends once" Queen protests and I tell her she's right. Once. Jade groans, "Forget the interracial beef ya'll have and just come to have fun" Rolling my eyes I try to change the subject, nothing these girls say will change my mind.

"But you only turn 18 once and soon we'll be graduating and moving on to college, why can't we put this behind us for now?" Queen questions and I stare at her. Soon we'll be graduating, she however still has another year in this bitch.

Not in the mood to talk about this anymore I put my hands up, "Fine, I will think about it" I tell them and they smile at me. "Good answer" Queen replies while scooping her arm under mines and we travel down the halls towards the door. As we get outside we see once again David and Lincoln shouting at each other. All Lincoln's friends and our friends are surrounding them, including Cole.

Of course he's here.

Jade huffs, "If I didn't know better, I'd say those two were secretly in love the way they fight" Queen agrees, "Can you imagine, David and Lincoln actually together?" The very idea sends chills down my spine and I shudder, oh God. Making our way over to them we prepare ourselves to break them up.

"Don't look at her, don't even speak to her!" David spits harshly. Lincoln's face is red and he's clearly angry, hmm, maybe we should just let them settle their differences. "I don't want your ugly ass girlfriend, I didn't even say shit to her!" He shouts back and Nicole scoffs.

"Did you not just talk about my ass?" She questions irritated and Lincoln laughs. "What ass?" He shouts and David immediately jumps back in, "You have three seconds to get the fuck out of here before I beat your ass" He threatens and by this time they've gotten way to close to each other.

Turning to Nicole I ask what happened, "This dickhead tried to hit on me, nigga think he's slick and he's not!" She tells me and I roll my face up. Lincoln literally has no boundaries, they've been together for mad long, why would he do something like this?

I turn to Lincoln, "Why do you always have to start some shit, we literally do nothing to you and you're always here with the bullshit!" He rolls his eyes and tells me to shut the fuck up. Oh, I am far from shutting the fuck up

"You're disgusting, how the hell do you live with yourself" I spit and instantly the anger in his eyes are gone. For a split second he looks more hurt by my words than angry. Everyone falls quiet and watches as Lincoln turns from shocked to furious.

Seconds later he's in my face screaming at me about how I don't know him, "Don't you ever fucking tell me who I am, you don't fucking know me!" He erupts and the closer he gets to me the more I step back. Lincoln has never yelled at me like this and for the first time he's actually scaring me.

"You don't know shit about me!" He shouts, his eyes locked on mines. They're filled with emotions and for Lincoln showing emotion is just not like him. He thinks everything is a joke and nothing ever gets under his skin. I guess until now.

"Yo chill bro" Cole hisses at him pushing him to the side.

"Mind your fucking business Cole, I'm sick of this bitch" He snaps and Cole steps closer to him.

"How bout you back the fuck up and watch your mouth" He snaps back and I hear oohs in my ear. Is he defending me? I thought he was mad at me? Lincoln looks past Cole to me and his eyes are still angry. Frankie and Anderson tell him to walk and he complies, "This ain't over Lyon best believe" He tells David and turns to leave.

Once he's gone Jade and Queen try to get everybody out of here. I wrap my arms around myself and try to pull myself together. I can feel the urge to cry in my throat but I won't. I feel a hand on my arm and I look to see Cole, "Are you okay?' He questions.

"Yeah, I just" I start.

Taking in a breath I tell him thank you. He didn't have to do that but if he didn't I'm sure Lincoln would've swung on me. "No problem, Lincoln was getting way too close" He replies and I agree.

David comes over to me and pushes Cole to the side, "Get the fuck out of here! " He spits angrily and I tell him to chill out.

"Dude just"

David growls, "I said get the fuck out of here!" He shouts again and Cole's face hardens. Looking from David to me he backs away and turns to leave. I watch him go and I move out of his arms, "What the hell is wrong with you!" I demand.

"It's that dickhead!"

"Of course it is" I reply tiredly.

"It's always him, with you and him it's always something!" "I get it, you don't like him but you can get expelled for fighting you idiot, if we can put up with him than so can you!" I erupt. He remains quiet and just like Lincoln there is a lot of emotion radiating off of him.

I take a breath, "Look I'm not your mother but"

"You're right" He cuts me off.

Now his face is stone cold, "You're not my mother" With that he moves past me and walks away. Nicole walks up to me and folds her arms, "What's wrong with him?"

I watch him get in his car and I shake my head, "I don't know"

^.^.^

"Are you sure you're okay?" Ma asks me for the third time tonight and I tell her that I'm fine, really I am.

She puts a hand on my leg, "Okay, I just wanted to check on you first before I go light a fire under your brother's ass with my belt" I chuckle and she tells me it's not a joke.

Getting serious I bite my lip, "Have you noticed he's gotten much angrier?" I ask and ma sighs and looks up. Eventually she nods, "Of course I have"

"But why I mean with Lincoln it's total rage?" I ask and ma shrugs her shoulders.

"I don't know but he's definitely angry about something, I keep think it's your father and he's just directing it towards Lincoln but every time I try to talk to him he just shuts down" She reveals.

Squeezing my leg she tells me not to stay up too late and I tell her that I won't. She kisses the top of my head and gets up to leave my room. As she closes the door I put my hair up in a pony-tail and put on my bonnet. I lay down and close my eyes to sleep when my phone pings.

Opening my eyes again I search my bed for my phone and when I press the home button and my screen lights up I instantly sit up.

From: Sterling

yo

Seconds later my phone pings again and it's another message.

From: Sterling

we need to talk