Forbidden Love/ Fack/ Jyatt (Book 1) FINISHED

27- GoldenGlobes & FreakOuts

FINN's P.O.V.
Jack helps me fix my tie and kisses me on the cheek
- I'm so sorry I can't bring anyone
- It's okay... it's not your fault
- I guess not
- Okay babe, gotta go
- Is Sadie picking you up?
- I'm picking her up
- You two are going alone?
- Yeah, why?
- Won't it sound weird that you're apart from the rest if the cast?
- It may, but we're still not talking, so... gotta take our chances
- Okay. Good luck Finnie
- Thank you, monkey
- Love you
- Love you too
We kiss each other's lips and I leave
I have a bad feeling about this awards. For some reason, I feel like they're just gonna suck. I really don't wanna go. Besides, I have to sit with Noah, Sadie, Gaten, Caleb and Millie
I pick Sadie up and we finally start our trip to the Golden Globes
- So are you nervous?
- So nervous
- Because of Millie?
- Because of the fans
- Explain
- The fans seeing we're not together. They may feel bad
- You really think they care that much?
- Are you kidding? They care about us more than our own parents do
Sadie laughs
- I'm not kidding. I don't wanna dissapoint them
- Hey... everything will be okay. Just calm down
- I don't wanna be by their side, Sadie
- It'll just be a minute, Finnie. You can do it
- I know. But what about the awards? I have to sit with them
- I'll sit next to Millie. You don't have to
- But what if I have to sit with Noah?
- Why don't you tell your manager to change the place where you have to sit?
- I'm not gonna do that... I'm supposed to be a professional. Besides, he's busy trying to get some roles for Jack
- What kind of manager is he? Can't he deal with you both at the same time?
- He's my dad
- What?- she asks, laughing
- Didn't I tell you? He's managing us. We're both tired of bad managers, so he's taking care of us. But he's learning
Sadie laughs
- Mr Wolfhard rocks
- I know. He's awesome
- Kids. We're here
Sadie holds my hand and fakes a smile
- Everything's gonna be fine.
- Promise?
- Promise. You go down first?
- Sure
We hug, and I go down the vehicle.
I'm shaking. Literally shaking
- Fuck- I whisper.
I know what's goin on. I'm having a fucking panic attack.
Sadie goes down and walks by my side
- What are you doing?
- If they ask, we'll say we're just best friends, but you can't take pictures on your own. You can't even walk.
She's right. I hadn't walked one step since I came out of the vehicle.
- Thank you
We walk together in the red carpet and finally find Noah, Caleb and Gaten
Sadie looks at me and nods
- C'mon. Just a few pics and interviews. That's all
- I'll be fine
Sadie stays by my side the whole time.
The awards suck. We lose everything we were nominated for and the only person I can talk with is Sadie. Don't get me wrong, she's really funny and I love to talk to her, but once in a while, I have to pretend I'm talking with Noah, and the rest, because of... you know, the cameras.
- Time for the After Party!- Shawn Levy screams at us
I'm feeling pretty bad. I can feel my anxiety growing inside me, and I'm still shaking a little
Sadie looks at me and smiles
- Are you ready?
- Do I have to?
- Just a few minutes. We'll take pics, and then leave
- You don't have to leave. I don't wanna ruin your first Golden Globes
- Are you kidding? We lost. The Handmail's Tale already ruined my night.
I laugh and end up nodding with my head
- Okay. Let's go
Outside the Golden Globes, a few reporters interview us
- So are you guys okay?
- We're amazing- I answer
- Yeah.
- Are you two dating?
- No. I'm dating Jack.
- Why did you come with Sadie and not with the rest of the cast?
- Why wouldn't I? She's my best friend
- What about you, Sadie? Is Finn your best friend?
- Yeah. Definitely
- How do you feel with the rest of the cast? A lot of people were saying the Fillie shippers ruined your relationship with Millie. Is that true?
- No. I want you guys to know that if we ever stop talking, it won't be because of you. I don't like to be shipped with Millie, but I wouldn't stop talking to her just because some fans ship us.
- You said "If we ever stop talking". Do you think that's possible?
- Sorry. I didn't understand the question.
- Do you think you two will stop talking?
- Oh, I don't know. But it's possible. I mean... nothing lasts forever
- I think friendship does- Sadie smiles- but only true friendship. You know?
- Do you consider your friendship with Finn will last forever?
- Luckily- she nods
- Yeah. Sadie's always here for me when I need her, and I try to be there when she needs me. She's a great friend
- So Millie's not a great friend?
- I never said that
- Is Millie a great friend?
- Oh, sorry. We have to go- We walk back into the limousine and leave the Golden Globes
- That was amazing. That cliffhanger- Sadie laughs
- It wasn't. I should've answered the question...- I regret myself
Even though Millie is not even my friend, the reporters will obviously modify the interview and make everybody think I said Millie's not a great friend- which is true, but not cool to say on TV-.
- It's okay...
When we get to the After Party, the rest of the cast is already there. Even Millie
- Wow. You got here early- Sadie says, walking straight to her
- Okay. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with you, but do I have to remember you we were best friends?
- Do I have to remember you you're being a complete douchebag?
- What have I done to you?
Noah gets close to them
- Why are you even talking to that traitor?- he asks Millie
I join them
- Traitor?- I ask, laughing- You are the traitor, you "secret gay guy"
- Are you saying I shouldn't be gay?
- I'm saying you shouldn't date Millie if you are. And OBVIOUSLY, you shouldn't kiss me in the bathroom when you're dating who used to be my best friend. And well, of course, you shouldn't turn all my friends against me.
- I didn't turned them against you, Finn. Don't be fucking ridiculous! They made a choice!
- No, but really. What have I done?- Millie asks Sadie
- You chose the wrong side, Mills.- Sadie says, a little sad- And when you found out about the whole thing, you didn't even say sorry
- I've done nothing wrong to you
- If you betrayed Finn that fast, you can easily betray me too
Millie starts crying
Gaten runs to us
- Guys, please. Everyone's watching us
I look around. It looks like the party stopped. Every celebrity in there is just staring at us, and whispering things to each other
My heartbeats start increasing.
We all look at each other and leave in separate paths
I sit down, trying to calm down.
- Sadie...- I whisper
Tears start falling down my cheeks
- Sadie, I'm...
- Okay. We're leaving
- But... the pictures
- It doesn't matter. They'll understand
She holds my hand and we take the limousine back to my hotel
Still crying, I lay down in Sadie's lap and bite my lip. She caresses my hair, and whispers "everything's gonna be okay" over and over again.
- I'm not sure I can keep doing this
- Doing what?
- Acting. It's killing me, Sads. My panic attacks, and my anxiety is much worse since I've became Mike, and Richie, and even more since we fought with the rest of the cast. The awards, the red carpets, and the premieres, I don't think I can get over my anxiety, and all those things are bad for me.
- Do you want me to call Jack?- she asks.
- No. Listen... I won't tell Jack about this
- About what? He knows about your anxiety.
- About my panic attacks today. He has way too many problems in his life already. I don't want him to get worried about me.
- Are you sure?
- Yeah. You haven't told him. Right?
- No. Just Nick
- You told Nick?
- Yeah
- I'm gonna call him

JACK's P.O.V.
After watching the GG, I turn the tv off and immediately get a phone call
- Hey?
- Finn lost- It's Jaeden
- Yeah, I know
- Is he with you?
- No, he's at the After Party. Why?
- He seemed really nervous at the red carpet
- What?
- Yes, Jack. Like... REALLY nervous. Didn't you see him?
- Not actually... I missed the Red Carpet when I went to order food. I came back to the hotel and the awards were already starting
- Oh...
- Where are you?
- I'm with Lilia
- So late?
- Yeah. We were watching the awards at Maddie's
- So she's like your best friend now?
- She's my girlfriend
- I'm talking about Maddie
- Oh, maybe. I don't know
- You don't have to push us away, you know?
- I'm not...
- Yes you are. Just because you don't wanna face Wyatt, doesn't mean we can't meet. We're friends
- I... gotta go, Jack. Sorry
- Okay...
- Bye
Finn comes back home earlier than I thought he would
- Hey!- I kiss him in the lips
- How was it?
- Not good
- What happened?
- I'm really tired, J. Can we just go to sleep? We'll talk tomorrow
- Okay
Next day, we both fly to Canada, where we meet back with Finn's family, who are in holidays.
Vancouver is seriously beautiful. I'm really glad I get the chance to go

SADIE's P.O.V.
When I wake up, the morning after the GG, I take a long shower and get dressed
- Sadie?- my mum asks
- Yeah?
- Hurry up. We have to go. The panel's in an hour
Ugh. The idea of seeing all the cast again, is just terrible. I feel really uncomfortable around them and the fact that I made Millie cry last night makes things even worse.
When I get to the convention, a boy guides me backstage, where Millie walks to me
- Where's Finn?
- Not here
- Is something wrong? Why isn't he here?
- I don't know. Maybe because you guys have been amazingly bitchy with him?
- No. That's not why he's not here- Millie denies his head off- Finn is professional enough to not mix things up. What's going on?
I suspire. I really don't wanna tell her the truth
- Sadie? What's going on with him?
- He had a few panic attacks last night, and he decided the best thing was just skip this convention
- A FEW panic attacks?
- Yeah
- Shit. That's bad...
I just nod. Is she serious? What's she trying to do?
- So are you gonna act all nice now?
- I care about him, Sadie. And I care about you. What happened that day, ruined me. I felt so stupid when I found out Finn hadn't kissed Noah, but at the same time, really ashamed. I just couldn't talk to him
- Girls?- a boy with a walkie-talkie whispers
- Well... you should've.- I answer her- I don't wanna be a bitch about this, Mills. But you acted like an asshole for long enough. I mean... even after you found out Noah was gay, you decided not to talk to Finn anyway
- GIRLS!?- the boy gets closer to us
- Don't you see we're talking here?- Millie screams
- Your microphones.
- What about them?- she asks
- They're opened
- What do you mean?
- Everyone heard your conversation
We look at each other and then look back at him
- I've been trying to tell you for the past two minutes, but you just kept talking
- Why didn't you turned it off?
- It's harder than that
Millie takes her mic out of her clothes and turns round
- I'm so fucked up- she whispers
Noah walks to us. He looks angry as fuck
- WHAT THE FUCK?- he whispers, covering his mic- Why would you say all those things with your microphone on?
- We kinda didn't know that they were on- I say
- Oh, so you're defending her now?
- No. I'm just telling the truth. I thought you had already realized lying is not good
- Oh shut up, Sink. You're such an useless bitch
WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT NOAH WOULD BE THE FIRST GUY TO CALL ME A BITCH? He looked so nice when I first met him. Like... I thought he was the best person in set. He turned out to be the worst...
Oh, FUCK. If they heard everything about our conversation, they heard about Finn's panic attacks.
I take my microphone off and leave
- Where are you going?- Millie asks
- I'm leaving. I can't get out there after saying all those things backstage. They'll ask about Finn, and those are not my questions to reply.
- I get it...
- Bye
- Bye- Millie smiles at me, and I just leave