Forbidden Love/ Fack/ Jyatt (Book 1) FINISHED

19- Noah & Sexuality

FINN's P.O.V.
I wake up and immediately look at my phone, which is now full with thousands of texts from the ST cast
The first conversation I open is obviously the one with Millie

"WTF FINN??"
"YOU KISSED NOAH?"
"I thought u were my friend"

As soon as I read the first text, my heart starts beating faster and faster but after a few minutes, I finally answer

"?????"
"I didn't kiss Noah!"

"Well that's what he said 😒"

"I'm telling u I didn't 🤷🏻‍♂️"

Millie just reads the text and doesn't write back. Finn suspires and opens the next conversation. Sadie

"You kissed Noah?"
"I actually don't think you did... "
"🤔"
"Did you?"
"You sounded like you were deeply in love with Jack when we talked at the Premiere"

"I DIDN'TTTTT"

"I KNEW IT"
"So Noah lied? 😱"

"Yep ☹️"

"Explain?"

"Can we meet sw?"

"Starbucks"
"1500 Broadway"
"20 mins"

"👌🏻👌🏻"

I take a bath and dress up
- Finn?- Jack asks
- Babe! You're awake
- What are you doing?
- I'm gonna meet with Sadie. Wanna come?
- No... I'm gonna make the guys breakfast
- Okay.
While I'm on the bus, I keep answering some texts. The next one is from Caleb

"Dude"
"Wtf?"
"U kissed Noah"
"!?!?!?!"
"Tf is wrong w u?"

I just bite my lip and don't answer. I don't feel like I have to explain what happened to everyone
When I get to the Starbucks, Sadie's waiting for me, and when she sees me, she walks to me and gives me a hug
- Are you okay?- she whispers
- I guess...
- Shall we order?
- Yeah
I check my phone and realize I'm being attacked at the Stranger Texts group. I delete the group, and Sadie looks at me
- You're out of Stranger Texts?
- I'm out...
- Why?
- They're fucking speaking about me, Sadie. I can't stand it
- So what happened?
- Noah took me to the bathroom and kissed me. That's why I left early
- Because of Noah?
- Yeah. I felt sick. I mean... he's one of my best friends, and I thought he really liked Jack
- Liked?
- As a friend- I explain
- Oh. So he's gay?
- I don't know... Maybe?
- I can't believe everyone believes Noah instead of you
- I do, actually. I'm practically gay but Noah's dating Millie. So why would he kiss me?
Sadie nods
- Oh, I see your point
- But I don't think they should spend their time talking shit about me. I thought they were my friends...
- They are. They're just confused
- Well they suck. You're the only one who actually took the time to hear my part of the story
- Well, I'm new here so I don't really know you guys that well, the less I can do is hear both sides of the story
I smile at her and nod
- Thank you
When I come back home, Jack is freaking out and everyone is already gone
- Hey. What's wrong?
- We have a festival to attend to
- What? No. The festival is... FUCK! The festival's today!
We were invited to have a panel at a festival so all of us are going. It's the first ever IT panel we're doing without Andy and we don't wanna screw it up.

JACK's P.O.V.
I choose Finn's clothes for him and for me
- Ugh. I can't go like this
- Why not?
- Your clothes are huge. People's going to freak out because I'm wearing your clothes
- How can they possibly know you're using my clothes?
- It's big for me, and if you ever gone out with this shirt and took any photo, they'll find it
- Okay. So what? Friends lend each others clothes all the time. Don't they?
- You think so?
- Sure...
- Okay
Nick takes us to the festival and then leaves
- Okay... we're here
- Where is our panel?
A man who works there guide us backstage with the other losers
- Finally!- Jaeden smiles
- Shockingly you two are the last ones to appear
- Hey! Shut up- Finn smiles at Jyatt- When are we going out?
- 10 minutes
- Okay
When we realize, we're already walking to stage
Finn and I sit next to each other
They ask some questions about chapter I we've answered before, then the same old "Who do you want to see as your character on chapter II" question.
Suddenly, the interviewer lets the public do some questions. This should be fun. Right?
- That girl from the pink shirt
- Hi- she smiles
- Hi!- we all answer
- My question is for everyone, but mostly for Finn
- Okay- he replies, a little nervous
- What does it feel to be sexualized at such a young age?
- Wow. Good question- I smile
- Okay... Um it's pretty uncomfortable. People who is older than us, shipping us and sexualizing is just a little creepy. Don't get me wrong, I love when people ship my characters, but ME, as Finn Wolfhard, is a little weird. Not just with Jack for being a boy. I don't care if it's a boy or a girl. I'm just talking in general
Then, a boy asks something to Jaeden and the next question is for Finn again
- You said you "don't care if it's a boy or a girl". You meant you DON'T CARE for real or you meant you don't care to be shipped with a boy?
- I don't actually understand your question. Sorry
- Let me rephrase it. You said you don't care if it's a boy or a girl. What did you mean?
- Oh. You're asking me for my sexual orientation?
- Kinda. Yeah
- Okay... I don't really think people should care. The people I like is my business, I don't think others should care so much about it. But uh... I think I'm going to be attracted to people for being people, not what gender they are
They all start clapping at him
- Thanks?- he says, laughing
- Okay. Next question is for Jack
- Cool
- How do you feel about what Finn said?
- About him not being totally straight?
- Dude. I didn't say that!
- Kinda...
They all start laughing
Finn looks at Jack and bites his lip
- I don't really believe on labels. I'm not straight, or bisexual, or gay, or whatever. I'm just Jack, and I definitely agree with Finnie when he says people shouldn't care about our sexuality
Now, everyone claps at me
- Finnie?- Sophia says- You're so sweet
I laugh and hush her
- So you're not straight?- another girl ask
- Okay. Why do I feel like every question is about Fack?- Wyatt asks
- Because you ship them as much as we do- a fan screams
Wyatt laughs out loud and I can't help but blushing
They all want Finn and I to be together... why?
- So?- the girl asks, interrupting my thoughts
- Oh, sorry. As I said, I'm Jack. That's all... if I ever like a boy, I'm not gonna try to suppress my feelings. I'm just gonna go for it...
- What about Finn?- another girl screams
Finn starts laughing
- What about him?- I ask, smiling
- Just go for it- someone screams
- Follow your feelings!- Sophia says, laughing
- Sorry. I didn't express myself like I wanted to. I'm gonna go for it, on my house
- Jack! You're making it worse!- Finn laughs
I blush
- Oh, you know what I mean! Don't be dirty, people! I meant PRIVATELY. I'm not gonna go to a reporter or a magazine and say I'M WITH FINN, or I'M WITH SOPHIA... my relationships are private stuff
- ELLIE IS NOT PRIVATE!- someone screams
- No, she's definitely not- Finn replies, laughing
- Finn? What are your thoughts on Ellie?- someone in the public asks
- I don't actually know her that much. I don't think her relationship with Jack is really "beautiful" I mean... they're not that cute together
- YOU'RE WAY CUTER- a girl screams
We all start laughing
- Aw, thank you. But no, seriously talking. Maybe Jack deserves something better, or not, but he's my best friend and I'm gonna support whatever choice he makes
- Okay. Enough Fack for a day- the interviewer looks at the public
- It's never enough Fack!- a boy screams
Finn and I look at each other and just start laughing
- I have another question for Jack
- What?
- Are you wearing Finn's clothes right now? Because they're pretty big and I'm pretty sure I've seen that sweater on a picture Finn took with a fan
All the Losers clap at her
- Wow. That's a dedicated fan!- Finn intervenes- Yeah. We all had a sleepover at my place last night, but the others went back to their houses. Jack, as he lives in LA, just stayed home, but he had no clothes to wear so I lend him some
I smile at him. He just saved me
- I have a question for Wyatt
- Yeh! Ask, girl
- Is Stenbrough real?
- I... don't think they have enough time to be real- Wyatt jokes
Jaeden starts laughing
- You know... Stan doesn't last much longer, so they are what you saw in the movie. If you think they were lovers at that age, that's okay...
- I don't think so- Jaeden says, with a straight face- Bill's married on the sequel
- Stan is too! But maybe they had a confusing childhood...- Wyatt shrugs
- I'm pretty sure Bill liked Bev
- Okay... well, my friend here says Stenbrough is not real, but maybe Stan wanted it to be real but never said anything because of his religion
- Everything's possible- Chosen smiles
Is Jaeden mad at Wyatt? Why did he reacted like that? So weird
- What about Reddie?- Jaeden asks the boys
- Reddie is totally real- I nod
- Yeah. Did you know Richie was actually gonna be gay at Fukunaga's version?
- Really?- I ask
- Yeah. Reddie is so real
- Question for Sophia. How do you all get along so well?
- Before start filming, we had two weeks to get to know each other- she looks at me and winks- so that helped a lot
We all nod
- One question for Jack
- For me?- I ask
- Yeah. Can we talk about the fact that even your girlfriend ships Fack?
- Who?- I ask, distracted
- Ellie- Finn says, looking at me
- Oh. She does? Okay... that's a little weird. I would never ship my boyfriend with anyone but me. But what can I do?- I shrug and Finn looks at me, shocked
- What?- I whisper
- You said boyfriend- he whispers at me
- Yeah. If I was Ellie, I would never ship my boyfriend with anyone but me
- You never said "If I was Ellie"
- Calm down. They got it
After the panel ends, we all go to The Disaster Artist's premiere and we meet James and Dave Franco. They are really cool.
- Hey, W. Is everything okay between you and J?
- I'm not sure
- What happened?
- We kinda fought the other day.
- But you're Jyatt! You'll be okay. Right?
- Actually... we're not together
- What?
- Jaeden asked me if we were a couple and for some reason I said we're not together. "We're just friends who have really messed up feelings for each other" I said
- What!? Why would you do that?
- My dad is SUPER catholic and he won't accept me and Jaeden being together. Besides, I know for fact I'm not gay, and I guess I'm not in love with Jaeden. It's just a crush. I'm sure he feels the same way
- Do you really mean that?
Wyatt denies his head off
- I don't wanna be with him, or any other guy. I refuse to date a guy
- Why? That's silly
- I just don't understand why I have feelings for him. I mean, I like girls. Have you seen Emma Roberts? She's hot
- Everyone knows that, Wyatt. That doesn't mean you shouldn't be feeling that way with J
- J is my friend, and I'm not willing to lose him just for a stupid crush. It'll go away. I'm sure...
- He really has feelings for you. You know? I don't know for how long he'll be able to be JUST your friend
- Well... I just have to think for a few days, maybe a few weeks. When I make up my mind, I'll talk to him
- Okay...

When I get to Finn's, Nick shows us his phone.
- What have you two done now?
The phone is showing Twitter's TT.
1- #FackIsReal
2- #FackIsBack
- What!? We're Trending topic?
- Twice at the same time
- Wow. That's awesome. That never happened to me- Finn smiles
- So you are happy? I thought all those Fack things disturbed you...
- They used to
- What changed?- I ask, smiling
- I grew up.
Nick starts laughing
- No, really. What changed?
- Okay...- Finn laughs- I realized people's support makes Jack happy, so it makes me happy too.
We hug and Nick bites his lip
- You two motherfuckers are adorable