Raindrops (Sugamon)

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Oh, was the first thought that came to Namjoon's mind when Yoongi got off the bus. It played on repeat, each recalling a memory that proved what Yoongi had just confirmed: He doesn't like, let alone love Namjoon.

In the beginning when they first met, Yoongi just acted kind to him in order to get out of the rain. He "opened up" to him when they were talking to eachother while it was pouring outside just so that he could dry off. Even when Yoongi abruptly kissed him, it  was all to see how quickly someone as disgusting as himself could fall for Yoongi, just so that he could laugh at how ridiculous Namjoon was.

I'm so ridiculous, he thought sadly. How could anyone love me?

When the bus arrived at his stop, he got off, and walked to his apartment. Inside, he saw Jimin and Jungkook cuddled together on the couch watching a movie and laughing.

I should stop being a bother to everyone from now on. They shouldn't have to deal with this right now, especially when they're so much happier than they ever have been than when they talk to me.

He dropped his candy off on the counter, and proceeded to walk to his bedroom. He wanted to curl up under his sheets and ignore the world that did not seem to want him in it. So that's what he did, but not before he turned on his phone to message Yoongi, trying to make whatever he did to the older right again.

Namjoon to Yoons

Hey, hyung. Thank you for tonight
Read at 10:35pm

Namjoon to Yoons

Are you alright?
Read at 10:47pm

Namjoon to Yoons

Did I do something to make you upset with me?
Read at 10:59pm

Namjoon to Yoons

Whatever I did, I'm so sorry.
Read at 11:08

Namjoon cried underneath his blanket, curled up into a ball of sorrowness. He keeped crying until no sound or tears were coming out, his body convulsing. He didn't even notice his friends slip into his room until he felt a small hand on his back.

"Joon, what's wrong? You didn't even come see us when you got in." Jimin said, concerned.

Namjoon quickly wiped away his tears and sat up in his bed to look at his two friends.

"It's nothing, I'm fine. How was your day? Did you guys enjoy the movie you were watching?" He asked, with the best normal-sounding voice he could muster up.

"It's not about us right now. What's more important is that you're hurting, especially right after you came back from your date. What happened? Tell us about your day." said a sympathetic Jungkook.

"Well there's really not much to say about it. We went out for lunch, went into to a couple of stores, bought some stuff, and saw fireworks which he had planned for me.

"That doesn't seem too bad. What did he do to make you upset?" Jimin asked while rubbing circles soothingly  on Namjoon's back.

"Oh, he did nothing. Everything was perfect, except for me. I was in the the wrong." Namjoon buried his face into his hands, trying to will away the tears pouring out of his eyes.

"Aw sweetie, you did nothing wrong." Jimin said, pulling him into a hug.

" But I did. He got mad at me on the way home because I messed up somehow. I don't even know what I did, but I wish I could take it back. He probably realised that someone as gross as me has feelings for him..." he said.