I Sold My Virginity

The Drama Looks Pretty in April

"Hey!" I smiled as he opened the door. John looked at me and smiled. "I brought donuts"

I held the box in front of me. He looked past the door and around me. "Is your boy toy here?"

"You're my boy toy" I chuckled. "Let me in"

He stepped aside and i walked in. "You look good" he said heading to the kitchen with the donuts.

"Thank you" I said quietly while sitting down. I know he's lying, I looked in the mirror and I look sick.

"Tomorrow's a big day" he said. "You're ready for it" he told me.

"You're right" I sighed opening the donuts box. "I got you Boston Creme, it's your favorite"

He looked inside the box. "Ew" he picked up the donut and rubbed a tissue on it. "There's jelly on it"

"Joshua likes jelly"

"Gross. He's a gross man"

"I know" I agreed sarcastically as I put the gazed donut in my mouth.

"Should you really be eating?"

"Oh yea the doctor said I can't eat past 5 pm"

"Then lets go get something to eat"

"I kind of want to stay in" I said politely. "I've been out a lot this week I'm a little pooped"

He sighed and walked into the bedroom. I stood up and followed him. "What's wrong with you?" I asked.

"Nothing"

"Seriously John you haven't treated me like this since..." Since he's been with April. He always acted uninterested in me when he was with April. He would yell at me, get angry for no reason and push me out. April is just bad news, she's poison. "Oh my God, are you back with April?"

"No, God no Valentina, I just... have been feeling off"

"When did it start?" I asked.

"When you first met him"

"Oh!" I groaned and rubbed my face. "I know John, I know you don't like him but don't you love me enough to consider that I do? I love you enough to let you hate him and talk about him!" He shook his head. "I didn't mess with you when you were with April!"

"Don't bring her into this"

"Don't defend her!" I yelled. "She walked out on you, I stayed... what does that tell you?"

"Goodness three years and you're still sore about the whole thing?"

I looked at him and stayed quiet for a while. "She's not coming back" I said with tears in my eyes.

"I can't stand him being with you" I just stared at him while he talked. "The thought of him touching you..." he shook his head and swallowed hard. "... it sickens me"

"Why are you saying all this?" 

He looked sad as he looked at the ground. "I just want you to be happy"

"I am happy"

"It tells me that I'm too late, aren't I?" he said answering an old question.

"To late for what?"

"She's coming back" he said looking at me. "She's coming back"

He's still holding onto the hope that she will. But she's never coming back. "Why do you hate him so much? What has he done to you?" I asked referring to Joshua.

"I know the type of guy he is. He's going to hurt you, one way or another"

"Why are you so sure about that?"

"Because that's who he is Valentina!" he yelled. "He fucks girls and he gets money!" John doesn't get mad often but when he does it's scary, there's like another side of him. He just lets out all his anger and he can't stop, he'll destroy everything if he gets bad enough.

"And that's who she fucking ran off with!" he continued yelling. "Your fucking Joshua"

"What?"

"April ran off with Joshua!" he yelled slower so i could "understand" him. I frowned not understanding all of what he's trying to say. "I know him, personally"

"You know Joshua?"

"Yes"

"Even before the auction, you knew him?"

"Yes, fuck"

"Watch your tone with me" I said sternly. "How do you know Joshua? How come you never told me?" I bambarded him with questions.

"He was the one April ran off with, he was the one that stole her from me"

"April was a whore she would've left with anybody, and how do you know it was Joshua? And when was this?"

"A week before the auction, April and I were at a party she was drunk"

"As usual" I interupped.

"He asked if April and I were a couple and when I said yes he apologized. He said that he had already fucked her and that he was on to the next one. Then I couldn't find April at the party and she didn't come home"

I bit down on my teeth. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"It wasn't a big deal until I saw him at the auction and when he bidded for you I just knew he was going to use you"

"He's not like that now. He's changed"

"You can't change people, Valentina. They just say you have so you'll shut up. April said it to me all the time"

"So what do you want me to do?" I asked. "Break up with him because April was a whore? Not my fault. Why did you even tell me? Was that supposed to change how I feel?"

When he didn't answer I spoke again. "He didn't do anything to me, he did something to you"

"Okay" he nodded. "Alright"

If he has more to say he better say it because I need to know the full truth. "Is that it?"

"No" he said. His eyes were watery and he was shaking. "But you don't care so..."

"John-"

"No it's okay Valentina. Maybe-" he stopped himself.

Now I feel bad. I'm always doing something wrong. I walked over to him and hugged him. It took him a while to hug me back but he did and he didn't let go. "I love you John"

"I love you too Valentina, I love you so much"