My Life

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I just feel like crying so bad right now.😔 I just can't though. I try to let it out,but it's all locked up inside. They say that it's okay and it's better to let it out and I'm trying,but I can't. No matter how hard I try,a part of me still says no and it won't go away.  I don't know why I feel like crying, I guess it's just everything that's going on in my life. All my older brother cares about is money and popularity. He doesn't like me.☹️ Jake never talks to me anymore unless I text him first and then he always leaves to go play video games without telling me. Jessica is.....,well Jessica. I love Jessica like a sister and I know I said I didn't like her anymore,but now I do again. I don't know. I'm so desperate. I need a girlfriend or boyfriend,but I'm looking for a girlfriend more right now to try it out. My other friend,Jessie,is cutting and depressed. So is my friend Alli. And Kim. And Mackenzie. And me,but please don't tell,that was the thing I told y'all I did but wasn't telling,now I did so please don't tell. And Jessica,but she's getting better. My head keeps hurting and it's been like that for four days. Something is wrong with me. I scare myself. I have a disease. I'm ugly. I'm fat. I'm short. I'm a monster.