𝘼𝘿𝙄𝙕𝙕𝙇𝙀🥂

Loss..

Adams POV

I watched her pack the last of her things as I sat there on our once shared bed staring out the window. Tears stained my cheeks as I let out a shaky breath. She sobbed zipping up her bags. It took everything in me  to stay strong and not give in .

This was the second time . I caught her cheated on me for the SECOND TIME! Rage filled me as My jaw clenched and I balled up my fist . She was all over him ,the way she looked at him ..she was in love, she was giving him everything that belonged to me .

Well what once did...

5 years of love passion and loyalty , just to be lied to in the end. I gave her my all when I was given nothing but lies and secrets in return . I pour out my heart , opened my wounds just to show her what love really was and she broke me Again and again.

"Please Adam it w-won't happen again!" All those pleads were fake. If she didn't want to be here she could have left . I never wanted to hold her from her happiness. I just loved her so much ..

I still do .

But.. I can't . I can't let her hurt me time and time again . She's the only thing I know but I'll have to find love in another place, another time .

I wanted love but you wanted the goddamn fame...

Now it's time I wake up ... see what really lied behind her crystal eyes. I was... a joke . This love was a game to her .
Little did she know I was madly in love with her ...
  

I walked down the winded stair case and stopped at the front door hesitantly opening it. I heard the click of her heels behind me and her tiny sniffles. I looked at the rain pouring ,trickling down the glass door. It had a patterned sound.. soothing .
I felt her tiny arms wrap around my waist . 

"A-Adam please, I - I love you." She whimpered

Lies...

"No...no y/n you don't. If you loved me you wouldn't continue to hurt me like you do. All I've ever wanted to do is love you but it's .. impossible . You don't want this anymore bro be fuhreal..with yo self ." I said barely audible. The tears that were screaming for escape in the back of my eyes were flutter back . I have to be strong .

She sighed letting me go . "I'm so sorry Adam . I-I never meant to hurt you. " she cried opening the door her shoulders slouched , face flushed. Her gucci bag I brought her dragged like her feet.

I wanna comfort her so bad .. keep it together .

"Goodbye y/n .. you know they say if you love it let it go . I'm letting you go because I want you to be happy , I wanna be happy. Ill always cherish what we had , but I'll never take the word "love" too kindly anymore. Not everyone knows what it is, or knows how to show and care for it. Don't be sad because it's over .. be happy because your free .. to hoe around. I'm free from all your lies. It seems You just ..lost interest, I hope he keeps your interest
Y/n ." I said shutting the door.

I turned around slidding my back down the door as I heard her car pull off. I exhaled deeply as the tears fell again.
It hurts .. but I have to be strong . I'm free ... free from heartbreak .

Now I know that the next time I find love , I'll know for sure if it's true, pure,Everything I've ever wanted .

It'll be golden .

I'll be more careful .

i deadass fw this 💯💔

minor edits made 4/24/19