Chaos|فوضى

No one listens

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why is it when you want to talk to someone there's no one staying up. or actually the ones that are, aren't the ones you want to open up to. or you want to, but you know, don't want their judgement or their pity.

so while you actually should talk to a real human being, you wind up either talking to yourself or writing that shit down,

- like I am doing rn -

therapist would be actually kinda needed right now. but how is it, that you feel like a total different human being in the night than you do when the sun's up? because i don't get it..

that's almost the only reason why i am not talking about this stuff to someone whom i'd be paying to listen to me,
but to myself
or outloud when there's no one there to listen.
or writing them up to my notes

I have so much in my mind, but still there's nothing coming from my lips in public.

hey ya there, thought i'd let you know what is been twirling through my mind for these last few days.. i'll be probably doing these more often..