Chaos|فوضى

Feelings that refuse to leave

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It's so damn tiring to feel this from time to time.

A feeling of being lost in a place and all you want is to be found. A feeling of being rejected. A feeling of being insecure. A feeling of being invalid. A feeling of being sad and lonely. A feeling of being scared about the future. A feeling of being a loser.

It sucks. Those feelings will take and visit you anytime of the day, and it almost attached with you. And the only time that it leaves you is when the time that you fell asleep after with very long hours of crying.

Although sometimes, you just feel those emotions with you. Yet, you almost hear the loud beats of your heart—and wonder how come you are still alive while it feels like you've been killed with hurt, pain, and the heaviness that hanged inside of you.