i still remember the things you did
the way you treated me for months making me more of a mess than i already was
my mind often replays those moments making me cry out
it's like a record that won't stop playing
i wish it would just end
then there's the person who gripped my hips and touched me when i couldn't utter the words no
if i said no would you have stopped or just kept going until you got off
why did do those things to me when we were supposed to be friends
thanks to you im terrified of being touched again
those memories replay again and again
i deserve ease from this pain
my head should be at rest
i can feel myself getting physically sick
maybe ill never be okay or at peace
i just wish my mind would stop replying things i don't want to remember so i can sleep at a decent hour
YOU ARE READING
things ill never say (poetry)
שיריםpoems written about my trauma, past abuse, heartache, suicidal tendencies, and other things of that nature along with some lighter poems. most will be triggering. please read with caution.
