I'm NOT Elena. (sequel to I'm NOT Katherine.)

Chapter 1 Holding On and Letting Go

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Jeremy's POV:

I ran to the hospital when I got Elena's call. I ran inside pushing people out of the way until I came to a hallway where I saw, Elena sitting on a chair crying her tears out. I walked up to her slowly...

"Please.... tell me...she's not." I looked at Elena then saw through the window Karin's lifeless body laying on the metal cart while Damon sits there putting his hands in his face too.

"Shes...gone Jeremy." Elena looked up to me. "She was our only family left..." Her voice cracked then she pour into tears again.

I sat down next to her and hugged her. I felt tears pour down slowly on my cheeks. "She... meet me earlier." I whispered through Elena's hair. "She told me... she'll always look out for us..." I whispered.

"She was always the best sister we can have." Elena pulled away wiping her tears. "She was..." Elena drifted from the sentence looking over to the open door showing Damon siting there with Karin's lifeless body.

I looked at Damon; it looked like as if his humanity was gone. Damon looked dead... so were we.

"She was... our only family we had." Elena finished. I looked at Damon again.

Elena's POV:

I got up from Jeremy's hug and turned to stand by the open door leading to the dark room where Damon sat clentching his hands. I slowly took my steps forward then stopped when I heard him whisper something.

"Come on... wake up please.." Damon whispered. "Please..." I saw Damon look at Karin's blue pale face.

He loved her a lot... they both loved each other.

The thought of losing someone you love pained me. Karin was my sister, she was a friend, and Damon's... humanity. If I lost Stefan... i would loose my humanity as well....

I looked at Damon again trying to keep my thoughts far behind my mind. I felt tears fall as I saw Damon touch Karin's cold pale face. I wiped them away quickly and I had to tell Damon what the doctors told me.

"Damon... she's..." I began to speak walking closer.

"She's not dead... she's not dead..." Damon kept his gaze on Karin's face.

"Damon... stop lying to yourself."I said.

It had to be done.

Even if his humanity has left with Karin...

Karin would want Damon to move on.

It can't be like this forever.

She wasn't going to come back as a vampire...

I folded my arms to hide the pain of my chest. I slowly felt him close to me as I looked up his face was full of anger.

"Stop lying to myself?"He asked but I kept silent to let him finish"Stop lying to yourself Elena. She's coming back alive. I'm not going to let her die on me. I will never let her die... on me..." he said almost a loud angry whisper

No...no... I didn't want a lie....a hope... a hope she can be alive. She was dead... Jeremy saw her earlier... it was official.

I felt the tears almost coming out of my eyes but I tried to hold it in. "Damon... Stop." I said looking at his angry firing blue saphires.

"Stop what?"He asked almost yelling "You want me to give up?! Well I'm not!" he yelled. "At least I'm not the one who has given up on her!" he yelled. "I will never give up on someone that held my life!"

I almost fell on my knees by his words.

I didn't give up... I never did... but I had to face to the truth.

"I havent given up on her...." I whispered. I clentched my fist. "You have to face the truth Damon." I felt the tears escape but I was mad how can he say I've given up.

"She's gone Damon! We can't do anything to bring her back!" I said through my teeths. I saw Damon look at me with expressions of hatred, breakdown, and humanity gone. "You have to let go Damon..." I whispered then walked out of the room before I began to cry a river.

Damon's POV

"She's gone Damon! We can't do anything to bring her back.... You have to let go." Elena said.

Her words echoed in my empty head.

She's Gone....

We can't do anything to bring her back....

you have to let go.....

No! She's not gone! I yelled in my empty mind. I turned back to look at Karin's cold pale face. I walked over to stand next to her. I touched her cold cheek, there was no blood flow, no breath..... no heart beat.

Something cracked in my heart... it felt as if a glass shattered all over the ground breaking into millions of pieces.

I clentched my fist and hit the wall next to me breaking it.

Face to the truth Damon...

"Damon!" Elena yelled and I looked up noticing I've been punching holes in the wall. I looked up and walked out of the room. I couldn't face the truth.

Elena'sPOV

I looked around the room seeing Damon's anger through the wall. I wiped a tear away. I looked at Karin as I walked over to her body.

"You were his humanity Karin... " I whispered wiping away more tears.

They loved each other

They were each others humanity

Damon just didn't want to face the truth.

Damon is left holding on to a lifeless body.

I looked at Karin's cold pale face, I touched her cold hands smiling a little because karin wouldn't want me to be crying over someone's death... especialy hers.

Next Day at the GraveYard.

Damon's POV

I looked at the others who were waiting for me to be the first to put down the flower. I looked at Elena who looked exactly like Karin with her hair but only tears falling down her cheeks. Elena took my understanding and started first. I put down my flower on Karin's grave which gave me pain. Everybody cried in each others arms.

She's gone.

She's in the ground.

She's dead.

My humanity.

My love

My life.

Elena walked over to me and hugged me whispering to me. "I'm sorry Damon." I didn't hug her back with her words. I pulled away from her hug and started walking out of the graveyard. I couldn't face her, I couldn't face the death, I couldn't face the break....