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Living In A Dream ♡

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Dear Diary,

I think I've been living in a dream for the last week, if i'm being completely honest with myself. I keep expecting to wake up in the middle of a cafe somewhere, with my head on table, drool dripping down my chin, and then onto the pages of one of my favorite books, looking around at everyone staring at me, because I've been there for days, and then saying to myself "Did you seriously think a boy like that would ever even think about kissing you?"

But I don't wake up in that scenario, I wake up in the same alternate universe where Harry is there, and he is making me feel a million different sparks flying through my body all at once.

My brain can't seem to understand the thought process of him. It almost makes me angry.

He's perfect. His body, his face, his hands, the little bit of shyness he portrays after a stint of confidence, the twinkle in his emerald eyes, the veins in his hands, and arms that peek through the delicately placed tattoos, even the way he carries himself is perfect.

He is everything I am not.

And get this.. He told me tonight that I was his inspiration. Me, Flora James, chubby, shy girl, who can barley fit into her size 22 'boyfriend' jeans.

Why does this boy want me?

I'm starting to feel like any second, the cameras are going to come out, and i'm going to see Harry with his arms crossed, and his model girlfriend hanging off his back, laughing in my face saying "THIS IS MTV, AND YOU'VE BEEN PUNKED!"

I have to admit that if that were to happen, The only thing I would be shocked at, is how good Harry was at pretending to like a girl like me.

Part of my mind wants to think he is writing sweet nothings about me in that journal of his, and the other part is thinking of all the words he can write to describe the fat on my hips.

I bet you wish I was telling you about my boring days again, aren't you diary? You're probably in on the joke too.

Sincerely, The girl who's in way over her head, because she's falling in love with a boy who is way to pretty to even talk to her.

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