Taken ( Michael Jackson fanfic) [Editing]

Back To My Old Ways

There we go another one , I had no idea we had these. I put the bottle to my lips. I could feel myself getting into it , that mutual feeling that it gives me. As I emptied that bottle I looked to see if there were any more and my question was answered when I could not find another one. My mind craved for the bottle while my mouth went dry. I need some I really , really do just one little bit. I staggered up the stairs to the bathroom in my room. I took a look in the mirror. The person I see is not the person I am why now do I have to go back?I know if I start again I will not stop they did tell me this. My eyes which were once bright and sparkle when I was young is now dull and lifeless. My red hair went in every which direction. This is not the person my parents would want to see , I am sure they are so not happy. Maybe if I didn't want to listen to that stupid cd my parents would be here today. I probably would have been a big sister , to a sister or brother. Maybe I would not be this messed up I would have a been a normal person and a loving relationship. But no I am here in this world all alone. I was deprived of so much from them the warm hugs from my mom and the cookies we would make on mommy and daughter day every Wednesday and Saturday of the week. When she would do my make up and I would do hers but instead she just had random colors or black lines across her face. Her laugh and when she would pick me up and kiss me all over. The way her brown eyes would twinkle every time she smiles. My dad I was his princess his little girl, every Monday he would bring home my favorite cookies oreos we would sit and watch Lion King and ate until mom would get mad him for letting me eat the entire pack. We would have so much fun , he was with me every chance he got from work. I resemble more of him than my mom , I got his brown eyes and dark hair while my mom has hazel eyes and was a red head. My dad is Indian so I got more traits from him. All these memories brought me to my knees on the floor as I curled up into a ball and cried my eyes out. This is most I have ever missed them. I really really want to see them I wonder are they in heaven?I want to go where ever they are. I need them now at this very moment, I cant go through this I need them. I have no one in this world , the people I had they are now gone I might as well go with them. I got up walked to the cabinet above the sink and opened it up. I saw one opened bottle of Advil and a razor blade. I took both of them out , I stared at the both items thinking which one should I do first blade or pills. I took up the blade , the object shined in my eyes this was once my only friend

" Old friend we meet again" I said

I held up my wrist my caramel skin shown into the bright light , I took the blade and slowly dig it into my forearm the blood ran down my arm and droped unto the white tile. Its stung at first but then the familiar feeling started to get to get to me. One slice turns into more than I can count, the floor had the decoration of blood. I had no feelings I felt numb to the world. I felt satisfied with myself , I put the blade on the counter the little blood on it splattered unto the sink. I took up the bottle and opened it up I poured the pills into my hand, I counted twenty of them I turned the tap on as I filled the cup at the side of the sink with water. I looked in the mirror as I took a couple of pills and swallowed them with water I did this until they were all gone. I know this should be working anytime now , alcohol and pills should not mix that's why it should be working any time soon. As I stood there I could feel the effects of both things. As my eyes got droopy and I could feel darkness coming over, my heart started to slow down I counted until I knew this would be the last beat.

" I am coming mom and dad"

Darkness took over.

~ Thank you for reading , this part was a little hard to write but yea thanks for reading

xxx-Meisha