Every day I discover something new about myself.
I get to know myself more and more.
Because I don't understand who I am or what I feel.
This is why I started this collection of poems.
I need to understand what I feel.
And only can I do that through words.
Today, what I've discovered is,
My worst enemy is fear.
I've always considered myself a brave soul, but with me feeling these strong emotions for him, I've realized that I may not be as brave as I originally thought.
My heart is afraid, not my mind.
I am afraid to trust,
I am afraid to love,
I am afraid to feel,
I'm afraid of honesty,
I'm afraid of abandonment.
And many more that I am still discovering as I fall further in love.
I am so afraid that he will leave me.
Afraid that one day he will decide I am not good enough for him anymore.
I like to say I am brave. But I am a coward, a coward to commitment?
When you are not nurtured as a child, little things tear you apart.
Things as simple as when he doesn't kiss you,
Or when you don't receive a text back right away.
I continue to try and understand myself.
I need to know.
YOU ARE READING
REALITY
PoetryPoetry for those few souls that long for realness our world lacks Written not for reads but a place where I can write my feelings so I can attempt understand them myself. ••• To the boy that changed me. Heartbreak or not, you will live on in my burn...
