❝So, what are the first signs of love?❞
❝Well, one of them is when your heart starts beating uncontrollably in front of the person you admire dearly and deeply.❞
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In which Chris Evans is...
Naomi ben? are you still in new york? SENT 7.03AM i know you said you'd be leaving for london in a week but you didn't mention exactly when you'd be flying off. i was hoping we could meet one last time. perhaps at that favorite restaurant of yours? the one that's just five blocks down from your loft? i'd really love to see you one more time before you fly off because knowing you, this may be the last time i'll ever see you. at least for a while. SENT 8.14AM i'm so sorry i didn't respond sooner. i didn't know what to say and i know that's not an excuse for leaving you on read for nearly a week. but knowing you, you'd just brush this off and tell me you understand because you're just so incredibly understanding of everything. though, despite your understanding, me not knowing how to respond to your messages is still not an excuse for my behaviour. SENT 8.20AM i'm so sorry, ben. i'm so incredibly sorry. i'm not sure if you'll get my messages when you're in the uk. or if you'd ever slip this sim card into your phone to check if you have any messages. but i hope you do. i really do hope you will. i didn't know you felt that way about me. or at least, i wasn't too sure about it. i recognized the hints you sent my way but i always couldn't help but think that they were just friendly gestures. i was wrong and i know that now but i guess i was a little too late. i guess we were a little too late. SENT 12.15PM truth is, i've always felt something for you, too. but i didn't know how you'd respond either so i just left it as it is and wished for my feelings for you to just. . . disappear. i thought that perhaps you'd find someone sooner or later but you didn't. and much like me, you went on a few blind dates but none were successful and i used to wonder why. i think now i know the reason as to why they all didn't work out. and about chris, thank you for seeing him in the way that i do. it means the world to me. SENT 4.31PM i'm sorry i didn't make my feelings known to you, ben. if only this happened two years ago. . . because i did, at one point, imagine a life with you. and perhaps you did, too. but right now, i can't say the same. i wish i could lie to you but i just can't. and i think you know it, too. and i think that's why you brought chris up. i didn't know what was in store for us both when i met him at the premiere. i didn't think that i'd start to have feelings for him. back then, to me, he was eddie's friend. but now, he's so much more than that. he's someone i care about deeply and the only other person i've ever felt this way about was with you and unfortunately, xavier. he's the person i want to share all my secrets with, be it good or bad. the one i want to talk to during my bad and good days. and the one i want to see smile every day of the year. thank you for saying chris is a good man. i'm still grateful, till this day, that the two of you managed to get along despite these recent events. MESSAGE DELETED i want you to know that i don't blame you for anything and you shouldn't blame yourself either. please don't blame yourself, ben. this was never your fault. nothing was ever your fault. i hope you'll find someone who will love you as much as you love them. in fact, i pray they'll love you more than you do them because your heart is made out of pure and solid gold and you deserve nothing more than a person who will love you back and cherish you for eternity. i'm sorry i can't be that person, ben. i'm so so sorry. i hope you can forgive me one day for causing you this much pain. the last thing i wanted to do was hurt you. take care of yourself, ben. please know that i'm forever grateful to have you in my life. naomi x SENT 5.09PM
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--- a/n; if you're wondering why there's a certain time gap between naomi's messages, it's because she's filming gifted so whenever she got her hands on her phone, she'd check to see if ben replied!
