the ruins of me

you'll never read this ii.

just so fast,
you slipped from my fingers and
disappeared into isolation.

you and i come from a place of hurt,
and a past that serves as an obstacle of growing or maturing way to fast.

you were different, you had your flaws, things that i thought were a bit extraordinary, that made me think that i was a bit out of your league yet my heart pushed towards you anyway.

i wondered why?
was it because of the way you had been raised? or was it smaller than that? like the shiver down my spine when you'd lightly touch me.

you've moved on, possibly at least, but on the journey to finding yourself
just know that i've tried forgetting you,
putting a little more effort into everything that isn't you.

but then its like i see you,
or someone that resembles you
and i completely lose it.
everything i've worked on, falling and shattering to the ground like a puzzle piece waiting to start over.

how could one living human heartbeat cause this much emotion uproar in me?

i see you everywhere,
i hear you everywhere,
i feel you everywhere.
and its becoming a problem due to the fact that its just a constant reminder of a love worth not fighting for.

but still, you're shattered,
you are still the sparkle in broken glass.
yes you are broken,
but that doesn't mean that i'm not willing to glue you back together again. cause thats what soulmates do.

even if you aren't mine.
i love you.

even if you aren't mine.

- zmh