[ 3:02 Pm ] you couldn't sleep as you looked at the clock, you should've been asleep by then, but you couldn't.
You kept tossing and turning. You were laying in your bed,
You started thinking about him ... his smile you missed so much, the way he cared about you.
Why did he have to leave.. why did you have to start the fight, you should've just kept quiet like usual, but you couldn't deny on how much it hurt knowing the plans he would cancel out of nowhere, leaving and coming late
" he never gave me a reason to stay" , you whispered to yourself as tears started to build up in your eyes
Did it ever cross his mind how much it hurt putting a fake smile each time.
Did he ever notice how lonely you became
Did he ever ask why there were dark circles around you eyes and it was all because of him.
Did he ever hear your cries at night while he was sleeping
Did he know how much panic attacks you've had without him there
And Did he ever notice the way your eyes lost it's life
And it was all because of him.
" I blame on you hongjoong" , you said out loud while breaking out in tears.
" it hurts so much" you said as you forced your way downstairs and you noticed the keys back where they were like they weren't even touched, you walked closer to the living room and you saw him sitting there and you wondered if he ever left
" do you not love me anymore hongjoong" you asked him
He looked at you while trying to grab your hands, but you moved away
" because if you don't, you should tell me, so I can stop crying over you"
Silence. He didn't say anything and that's when you turned away to go back upstairs until
" I love you y/n and I never stopped, but you deserve someone better than me, someone that will give the time, someone that isn't all night in their studio" , he says to you as he looks down
You walked closer to him and wrapped your arms around him
" I deserve you hongjoong" you whispered to him
You didn't know if you were making the right choice, but you knew that you loved him and he was your everything.
He was yours and you were his and everything would be alright.
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