falling for u ➳ joshua hong

t e n ☕️

joshua

it's been 3 months since i first met haewon, and i've grew more and more curious to find out her past and her "childhood trauma" sojung mentioned a few weeks back. at the same time, my feelings for her developed and she's now... how do i say this? my crush? yeah, whatever.

autumn season is also almost over, and it is now november; haewon's birth month. i heard her friends were planning a surprise party, and i'd like to help, too.

but every class that we're in together, not with wonwoo nor sojung, she always seems to act cold and avoid me. when i was in her house a few weeks ago, she barely talked to me. she only seemed to talk to her brother and her brother's friends, and we only talk when necessary. you know like, "can you pass me the salt?" or when i asked her, "where's the bathroom?"

yeah, those were the only moments we actually talked.

i think i already got enough trust for her to tell me about her past. i mean, we've been pretty close... lately. i decided to ask her if she wants to go to the café for a chat over coffee. after all, it's just a chill friday.

"haewon?" i asked. she replies with a hum, like how she always replies to me. "do you wanna go to a café later? chat over coffee, hm?"

"uh- sure.." she said, but seems a little hesitant.

"okay! meet you at 4:00, sounds good?" i asked as she replied with a nod.

"sounds good." she said, flashing a smile at me as she walks away to go to another class. i swear, that smile always gets me...

➳

should i talk to her or not? i'm worrying a lot... is it a mistake to ask her about this? what if this was a serious situation? phew, calm down, josh. you already planned this. you can't just ditch! my mind is twisted...

without notice, it was already 4:45 PM. did she just ditch me? she doesn't seem like the person that will just ditch you, though. maybe something just came up for her. or maybe she's just late. i'm just gonna wait more.

i looked down at the table, the coffee we were supposed to drink together is now two cups empty... i think i should go. it's already 5:10.

i stand up from my seat, ready to go, until i got a text. a text from an unknown person...

unknown number

unknown number
jisoo!

who is this?

unknown number
it's haewon.

oh! haewon! i just went out the café, you didn't come.

you changed "unknown number" to "haewon💗"

haewon💗
yeah, sorry about that. i forgot that i had a meet up with you, and i forgot to tell you that i had piano lessons. sorry😁😁

you had piano lessons? i didn't know you could play...

haewon💗
yeah, no one knows i could play. well, except
for hyungwon and sojung.

sorry for making you wait, again. i'll
make it up to you next time!

it's okay! i needed coffee, anyway.

btw, how did you get my number?

haewon💗
oh yeah!

i got it from jeonghan.

i texted him and asked for your number
to inform you that i had piano lessons.

what? you had his number?

haewon💗
pfft, yeah.

since like, 2 months ago hehe.

but we rarely text, though.

ohh, okay.

haewon💗
anyway, i gotta go now.

all right, see ya!

byeeee
seen

➳

as i walk to the bus stop, i couldn't stop thinking of haewon. how come she has jeonghan's number and jeonghan didn't tell me? that's honestly kind of rude. as jeonghan's best friend since 1st grade, i should know everything about him! he knows i have a crush on haewon, why didn't he tell me her number?

without notice, i was already at the bus stop. i sat down and waited for the bus to come.

after a while, the bus came and i sat down on the very back row. then, i remembered what jeonghan said back in jiya's party...

"do you like anyone?"

he sighed loudly. "yes, i do like someone."

perhaps that someone is haewon? nah, impossible. i know jeonghan won't "betray" me like that... or will he?

➳

did ya notice that some parts of this chapter were lyrics from "falling for u" by josh and jeonghan? k bye

word count: 737 words