falling for u ➳ joshua hong

t h i r t y ☕️

haewon

alas, it's the last day of school! a few more hours and i'm done with this hell of a grade! but... in a few more hours, i'm gonna confess to jisoo...

am i nervous? yes, but knowing the fact that he already confessed to me a few months ago makes me less nervous. but, you never know, maybe his love for me faded already... but stay positive! i never know what's gonna happen, anyway.

my heart started beating faster than ever as i reach the last question of my final test. after i answer this question, the studying will end (temporarily). but my heart is not beating fast because of that. it's beating fast because, the time of me confessing to jisoo is coming closer.

i already asked him to meet up in the back of school, after the classes have ended. and now, in a few minutes, that's gonna happen- oh, my god. the bell rang!

the students started cheering because school was over. the teacher asked us to submit the exam papers, and everyone passed it fast, with anticipation hitting them like a bus. when everyone passed the papers, the teacher dismissed us and everyone ran out the room.

"have fun with your summer, everyone! thank you for making this school year a memorable one!" the teacher said, waving at us.

"have a great summer, mrs. seo." i said.

"thank you, haewon,. you, too. bye!"

i went out the classroom, and went to the back of the school. i peeked out the wall, and jisoo wasn't there, yet. i sat down on the bench, and waited for him to arrive. after a minute that felt like hours, jisoo came.

"hello, haewon." he said.

"hi, jisoo."

"why did you call me here?" he asked, sitting on the place beside me.

phew, this is it. you can do this, haewon. my chest started beating like crazy. it almost felt like it was gonna beat out my chest.

"haewon, are you okay-" he said, but i cut him off by kissing him on the lips.

(a/n: oh my god. you think this is gonna be over? no, hAH)

he was obviously shocked, but he kissed back. after a few seconds, i pulled away. i pulled a strand of hair back my ear as i stared at the floor in embarrassment. a slight blush crept up my face.

"haewon, look at me." he said.

i looked at him in the eye. "what was that for?" he asked.

"i like you." i admitted, "i like you very much, hong jisoo."

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summer officially started. jisoo and i aren't dating yet, but he said he likes me back. i didn't have enough strength to actually ask him out on a date, and i guess he got the message that i wasn't ready to date. but hopefully, somewhere in the summer, i'll ask him out (or he asks me out).

jisoo and i kept texting each other on the first weeks of summer. we even met with each other on other days, sometimes come to each other's house, etc. in short, we've been closer than ever since summer started.

but something happened that made me really sad. around two weeks into summer, he stopped responding to my texts. i kept texting him, spamming him even, but he doesn't respond. it doesn't even say 'seen' or anything. it's just... empty.

i told sojung about it, and the same thing happened to her and seungcheol. i tried texting jeonghan... nothing. i decided to come over to his house.

jisoo💩

haewon
jisoo

im coming to your house

why arent you answering any of your
texts?

jisoo

youre making me worried....

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that day, i went to his house. i knocked on the door, and his mother answered. "mrs. hong? is jisoo home? he's not answering any of my texts... it's making me worried."

mrs. hong froze. she looked at me, then spoke. "i- uh, i need to get something, first. someone's calling me, hold on." she said with a smile, before walking back in their house, leaving me waiting outside. i decided to sit on the stairs they had, and after a few minutes, the door opened.

"oh, uh, jisoo's not home right now. maybe try next time." her mom said and shut the door.

i was left dumbfounded. this doesn't make any sense! just a few days ago jisoo and i were talking as if we were dating, and now he's 'not home'?!

i walked back home, then asked my mom if she can ask jisoo's mom where jisoo was, since i knew that asking mrs. hong won't help.

she tried calling mrs. hong, but it said that the caller was 'busy'. the next day, i decided to try again.

i looked for any social media accounts of him and his close friends; nothing. i tried texting him again; nothing. i tried texting his friends; nothing. after a while, i gave up. i figured that jisoo just shooed me out of his life again.

i cried that night. just when i confessed to him, something bad happened. i knew it. i shouldn't have trusted him, nor his friends. i knew this was going to happen. my conscience was right, but of course, being the stupid and love-blind girl i am, i didn't trust it.

the next week, my mom noticed my sadness and decided to call jisoo's mom again, but failed. then, she found out that mrs. hong moved somewhere, but she's not with jisoo.

i don't understand. i don't understand how he could just leave me like that without notice.

i cried again. i cried every night, until my tear ducts couldn't cry anymore. i wish i just didn't meet him. there's so many things i could've done to prevent this, but i was just too dumb. i was too dumb and naive to trust him again.

after a week, i decided to move on. i decided that will have a fresh start, without jisoo. i decided to enjoy my summer, since there was only one month of it left. taeyong, wonwoo, and sojung helped me move on, and it worked. i finally forgot jisoo, after all these painful weeks...

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after a month, school started again. but this time, without jisoo. i moved on from him now, but i will never forget what he did to me. but other than that, i enjoyed summer with my friends and family.

eventually, my mom and jisoo's mom lost contact. now, jisoo is just part of my past. it's my last year of high school, and after that, i'm planning to audition in an entertainment company to pursue my dreams.

sadly, hyungwon and jooheon graduated last year and they're now trainees in starship entertainment. i'm planning to audition there, so that i can be in the same company as my brother. i even heard that my brother and his friends will have a survival show for their future career.

i have now decided that this can be a fresh start for me and my friends, and no more boy drama.

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