Gold Heart, Warm Soul

2| I'm calm like the sea before the storm

"Oh! My darling baby! You're awake!" My mom gushes as she saw me sitting on the hospital bed. I looked pale under the sun rays reflected from the window. I have dark circles under my eye and I am drained from all the medical gibberish the doctors and nurses did on me. Although my health is alright, I'm am still weak physically. I cannot stand as my muscles had deteriorated from lying down for 6 months.

My mom hugged me tightly, while her tears soaked my hospital dress. My dad patted me on my head looking relieved and my brother stood by my side holding my hand. I could tell they were happy for me, but I knew the doctor had not told my parents the bad news. I had done CT scans prior to my family arrival and the doctor have yet to announce the results.

Since the same events are happening as my first life, I already known what I had. There was an abnormal growth on my brain but specialist could not determine whether it is benign or malignant. Besides, doctors did not dare to take out the tumour from my brain as they are afraid I would lose my cognitive abililities and have problems with coordination. The tumour is located on the cerebellum of the brain and may affect my brain stem too. It would be a difficult surgery to do and the percentage that I would survive the surgery is less than 20%.

In my past life, due to not discovering the tumour earlier, I had died during the surgery as the tumour had progressed further. However, I know i would still die once my five years was up. I could not change the strings of fate but at least things would be different. "Mum, I'm hungry. Can you bring me some congee?" "Yes of course. Look at me, I've been so happy since you woke up and I forget that you need food. I need to fatten you up. You're like skin and bones!"my mum replied me heartily.

"Don't forget we have an appointment with Dr. Cass late in the afternoon. Do you need anything sis? I'll bring it for you after my work is done,"my brother Kace asked me. "No it's alright. You have a lot of work. I'll be here waiting for you to visit me,"I said cheekily. "Besides, I'm sure you would love to visit Dr Cass more than your own sister." From what the nurses had gossiped in front of me, I found out that my brother had a crush on Dr Cass who was a medical genius in the hospital I was in. Seems like my brother saw her often while he was visiting me.

My brother shook his head. Ignoring what I had said,"I'll bring you dinner. Go to sleep. You look like death." Thanks bro, I inwardly thought while rolling my eyes. As my mum fussed over me, I felt too calm. Like I was watching someone's life in the third perspective. I wonder would a normal person feel like their world has changed? Ah, I want to see the sunset from the ocean. Feel the rain on my skin. Breathe fresh air. Look at beautiful flowers. Flowers. Baby's breath. I want to feel them and be surrounded by baby's breath when I die. Was that too dark? I already had one foot in the grave. I think it would be alright.

What would happen if I saw him again? Titus Zhang. Would I still fall in love with you again? I hope I can change my fate. I want to be free. Free like the sky. Like the meaning of my name Ambar, that literally translates to "the sky".

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Cast and their names (in chapter 2):
Female lead: Ambar Lee
Male lead: Titus Zhang
Brother: Kace Lee
Mother: Florence Lee
Father: Shaun Lee
Medical professional: Dr. Cassandra Ho (dr. Cass)