The babysitter //SUGA FF//

40.

One week passed in school but I feel like I was thrown in a washing machine and somebody set up a really long program on it. Not only because of the school but because of the university and the work together. I could rest less because when I had leisure time, then I could look after Haru and when I could sleep longer in the morning then I had to babysit in the morning or in the forenoon. It was exhausting but at least I earned money and it wasn't a bad job. It would have been much worse to work in a shop or in an office for eight hours long where the monotonous machines are on and everybody slams the keyboards all day and zombie secretaries pace up and down everywhere. No, I rather looked after Haru with joy who perhaps charged me with as much energy with which I was able to bare the school. I felt it just afterward at night how tired I already was.

I dossed down on the couch and I extended my whole body. I don't want to do anything at the weekend, just sleep. Perhaps I'll give myself a little break to pee or eat something but otherwise nothing else. I whimpered when I heard that my phone is ringing. Hardly, but I pushed myself up and I reached for my phone. I looked at the screen and my eyes widened but the surprise immediately switched to a smile.

-Yoongi? – I said into the phone as fast as I picked it up.

-What's your plan for tonight? – He told me without preface.

I bit on my lower lip and I caught hold of my pants. What's my plan? To be honest, nothing but I'm sure he has if he asked it. Should I say yes and be with him because I really want to or say no and make my dream come true and sleep?

-Nothing – I replied at the end.

-Do you want to come over? – He asked in a calm tone.

I opened my mouth but I closed it immediately. Go over? What does that mean? What will we do? Knowing Yoongi, nothing nice but not knowing the new Yoongi, I had no idea. Should I say okay now? And what if, it will be awkward? Maybe we won't be able to talk and it will be dead silent. And will I sleep there or just go over for a bit? Ah, Yoongi why are you so complicated? Or am I the one who complicates things?

-Until when? – I asked back nervously.

My voice trembled a bit and I was happy that it couldn't be heard through the phone as much as in life. Yoongi sighed or hemmed loudly as he was thinking.

-Up to Monday morning – He said.

My mouth fell open and I didn't know what to answer. Was I scared? Yes, a bit. I have never slept over at a man's place, I haven't been in that kind of relationship to get to that step. And now I should be with the most dangerous man in the world – okay, just for me – for two days long? And how will I take a shower? Does he have doors that can be closed or he can open the door on me? Do we have to sleep in one bed? And the food? Should I cook or he will do it? The whole situation is really awkward.

-It's enough if you stay only till tomorrow morning, you don't need to panic – Yoongi laughed when I was gaping for one minute straight into the phone like a wrecked fish but I didn't give out a sound.

-Okay – I sighed.

I promised that I'll open towards him too. He really does everything to not to throw himself at me straightaway although sometimes the sign of his pants are really embarrassingly obvious that how hard it is for him. I can't cop out of our agreement so what will be a better occasion like this offered opportunity? Okay, I was damn nervous about it, I had no clue, what should I do in this kind of situation but he was my boyfriend after all, or what the hell, I had to do something. I couldn't hold our relationship on the level of a grammar school student, we were adults and we had needs if we didn't have everything at the same time but we had. Even I had although I wasn't pro, my brain worked the same way and it was unstoppable if it was about Yoongi.

-Twenty minutes and I'll pick you up – The man's voice from the phone woke me up.

-O-okay – I answered.

-Be ready! – He said and with that, he ended the call.

Jesus, what did I undertake? I'm walking into the lion's cave willingly when it's perfectly obvious that I'm the prey. But what can you do when my mouth opens first before my brain could have thought? I don't regret it, I'm young, I have to make decisions like this to live finally. Right? I'll find out.

At least she is coming for one night. I could see her scared face in front of me with her widened eyes and with her dropped tooth as I told her that she could come for three days. Although I didn't joke, she could really come since she could get to the university in 2 minutes from my place. But it's not a problem, I was happy that I achieved her to come over only for tonight.

I looked around fast in the flat, at least when she comes she won't be greeted with undershorts although I know myself as an ordinary, cleanness liking person but I made sure. I made the sheets right and I took out one more blanket from the case under the double bed. I knew that she would resist sleeping with me but she has no other choice. She'll sleep here and that's it. Although I'm torturing myself with that too because I Shouldn't touch her and I can't do anything with her, she'll be here after all.

I checked the fridge in the kitchen whether I had drinks and some snacks for a contingent film watching. And that really needs to be just watching, I'll slap myself in the face to remind myself.

When I felt everything ready for welcoming her after a fast looking around I picked up my car keys and I made my way towards Yoora's place to get there in ten minutes as I promised her. Though if I'm late, it wouldn't be that big tragedy, at least she can get ready comfortably and I also don't want to get a fine because of speeding.