I Need You

Chapter Twenty One

        My eyes widened at the new information. A rogue that knows how to mask his scent, they could be anywhere at anytime. Suddenly, it feels like my safe place isn't so safe anymore.

     I looked at Adrian. I didn't want him to leave me here alone if he was going to help them. I knew that when I found out he was an alpha, this all came with it. Maybe I'm scared that he'll never be around if I need him because his pack needs him a little more. I shouldn't even be thinking like that considering that I am the future luna of this pack. I'm not worthy of this and he deserves someone more stronger and not as weak as me. I feel bad for him, for getting paired with me. I'm not fit to be a luna.

I wish I was like my mother. She was strong, she took care of her pack. She was right there beside my father, helping him, guiding him like a luna should. How can I do that for Adrian if i'm scared to talk to everyone and anyone. I have missed out on the past ten years of society. I didn't even know what the word mate meant.

What kind of leader is that?

Adrian was in full alpha mode. He was thinking of what to do , his next move.
"Jacob, stay here with her," he said with command, "I need to know she's safe while I'm sorting this out," he explained.

"Of course alpha."

   "No!" I grabbed his bicep as I said what I was feeling. Realizing I said it quite loudly I said more quiet, "Adrian, no."

    He turned around to look at me, his eyes once again softening while looking at me, "Love, I have to leave and someone has to make sure you stay safe." He brought his hand up to cup my cheek. I leaned into his touch, welcoming it.

   I looked from Adrian to Jacob, analyzing more of him. He was just watching us, waiting patiently, but also like he was about to take any order his alpha threw at him. He stood up straight, taking this matter very seriously. Clearly.

   I looked down at my hands, playing with the cast on my arm. I do not feel comfortable at all. Even thinking about being left alone with another male is uneasy to me. It took a long time for me to warm up to Adrian.

   It was silent for a little bit until I looked back up at Adrian. His hands had stopped my fiddling and he was staring at them, "Jacob, get a few more pack guards. Surround all perimeters of the house when I leave, just don't go inside. Unless the rogue comes in here, or you suspect anything worse."

My heart started to beat fast. He changed what he thought because of how I felt. He could read me. He understood. Flutters appeared in my stomach. Partly from what he said and also because he started rubbing circles in the back of my hands like he used to when he was in that cell.

   This time Jacob hesitated like he was confused but nonetheless agreed, "Right of course, sir."

Adrian nodded at him, a distant but satisfied look in his eye, "I'll be right back okay," he said turning to me.

I nodded back at him.

"Don't open the doors, don't open the windows, make sure they're shut until I come back." Once again I nodded at him. I didn't want to tell him that I just planned on staying in his room the whole time.

"I won't be long, love," he reassured me. Adrian leaned in closer to me, his lips specifically. Is he about to kiss me? I closed my eyes, not prepared for what was about to happen. I don't even know how to kiss. I've never missed anyone before.

Just before my mind could go into overdrive, his lips landed on my temple, so gently. I've never felt something so soft. Either way, I was yet relieved that he didn't kiss me, but sad that he knew I wasn't ready for that. It fascinates me that in some ways, he already knew so much about how I feel.