you just can't be replaced | unfinished + unedited

where is she

jakes pov:

i walked into the precinct at 8:45am again, which had come to become my new regular time, since my life had been flipped upside down by this thing called love, and since id realize so much and how long I've loved her, hell charles doesn't even know and he's always make jokes on how we are perfect for eachother. throughout the past few days rosa and i have been talking about the situation a lot and she's been trying to give me advice, since she went through a similar thing before gina confessed her love back.

i sat down at my desk and patiently looked at amys desk till the ray of sunshine would arrive, but she didn't. at 10am i went into holts office "hey captain, where's santiago? is she on duty?" i tried to ask chill so i didn't look to concerned but inside i was worried sick. "oh...she called in this morning, she's sick she can't come in" he said barley lifting his eyes from his paperwork. i nodded and walked out "diaz" i said firmly, "can you come here for a minute" she walked over. "what's up" she said semi concerned. i explained to her that amy was out sick, but she never missed work. she just came in last month with a nasty cold but kept working. "oh shit, thats really off of her" she admitted and looked at me "look jake dont overthink it im sure she's okay, maybe she had a family issue, and she's at home or with her mom" i nodded and looked down at my desk. i thanked rosa and she went back to her desk. i mumbled "fuck" and tried to keep working but the day passed so slow i was worried sick. no one seemed to overthink it but me, i mean i was the only one in the office in love with amy santiago. and fuck it was the hardest thing id have to control. so i picked up my phone and decided to shoot her a text

**text convo**

j: hey santiago, you okay? you never miss work

a: oh hey jake, im fine.. i think i got food poisoning  so i couldn't come in everything okay?

j: yea yea, just wanted to make sure, work is slow no worries

a: okay good, don't get any good cases without me ;)

j: bet on that!

amys pov:

wow, i have been crying all day scarred by what happen, i couldn't eat, nor sleep, could barley even get up. then jake texted me,  and it lighten my mood a little. jake always lightened the mood. instantly after i remembered i was now mentally stuck in some loop with teddy now, and there was no getting out, but i couldn't let myself go through that, but  how would i tell someone he made me swear i wouldn't tell, who would i even tell., how would i handle that, i closed my eyes and silently cried for a bit and eventually got lost in my thoughts.

-jj