FORTUITY ☆ B.BARNES ✔️

40; Things I Wanted to Say, But Never Did.

DEAR MAEVE,

You won't talk to me, so here I am. Wow, can't believe I'm stupidly writing a letter to you. Forgive me for my spelling mistakes, I haven't written in a while. 

anyways, there are just so many things i wanted to say to you. i always figured i had the time to tell you. so first of all, i love you. i feel like i haven't told you that enough. i love you. i love you. i love you so much. 

why did you leave me? i told you, i wanted to fix things, fix us. I was willing to try, maeve. i was willing to compromise, but i know you think that if a relationship has to be compromised, they shouldn't work at all. that's not true and i don't know how you could think that. secondly, you are appreciated, i don't think i ever told you that. you aren't useless at all, no matter how much you beat yourself up for it. everyone loves you. since you're avoiding me, i can't tell you outside but please please please take a break every now and then.

you're tiring yourself out by working late. you look like a ghost, love. i just wish you'd eat more. i miss your cooking, i miss the smell of your hair, i miss your laugh. you barely laugh now, and it breaks my heart. god, i miss you so much.

by the way, did you know how i felt? when i told you i needed you, and you left me. how do you think that makes me feel. i depended on you, maeve. 

part of me knows i hate you but another part of me knows that's a lie. i want to stop thinking about you, but i can't. you are on my mind everyday. 

how do you make things right when you make it so wrong you can never come back?

- Bucky.