Everything is purple (jake Webber X reader)

Depression part 2

•your pov•
I walked in and saw Kat and Devyn sitting on the couch.
"Hey y/n." They said.
"Hey." I said.
"Can we talk to you." Kat said.
"Yeah sure what's up." I said sitting on the couch.
"You know your our best friend." Right Devyn said.
"Yeah y'all are my best friends to." I said.
"Meaning you can talk to us about anything." Kat said.
'Oh lord do they know. They can't I haven't told anyone and no one has seen it.' I though.
"Yeah I know." I said.
"Ok." They said. I went up to my room.
When I got comfortable I decided to play on my phone. I looked at the time and it was 10:30 pm.
"Jesus did I really stay out for that long?" I asked myself. Just then I heard a knock on the door.
"Come in." I said. I then saw jake.
"Hey Jake." I said.
"Hey." He said and sat on my bed.
"What's up." I said.
"Y/n." He started to say and then sighed. Ugh why does he have to be so cute. Oh shut up he doesn't even like me. I started thinking then Jake started talking.
"I really care about you. Like a lot. I know it may not seem like I do but I really do. You are the closest person I'm to besides my girlfriend.." he said. I started spacing out when he said girlfriend. 'He has a girlfriend.' 'I was right he doesn't like me.' I thought.
"Who's your girlfriend?" I asked not meaning to.
"And- wait what?" He asked.
"Who's your girlfriend?" I asked.
"Tara." He said.
"Oh.." I said.
"But like I was saying you mean so much to me and if I lost you I don't know what I would do." He said.
"Wowww."I said. "Um I have no idea what to say." I said. We just sat in awkward silence.
"What I said what true." Jake said breaking the silence.
"Well then thank you?" I said questionly (<— is that even a word).
"Yeah no problem." He said.
"Well imma go take a shower." I said.
"Alright I'll leave but I do have a question." Jake said.
"What's up." I said.
"Where were you?" He asked.
"Oh I just went to sonic." I lied.
"Oh ok." He said and left.
I went to my bathroom and played pandora and took a shower.
While I was taking a shower the song 'Patience' by Shawn Mendes came on. So I started singing.

You hit me up
It's late at night
This is the same old story
Your friends should take your phone away
I always give in when you tell me lies to reassure me
I always make the same mistakes, yeah
Ooh you give a little taste
Love me and then you take it from me
Oh I hate that I love it
'Cause you're driving me crazy
First you say you love me then you say you don't
I wake up in the mornin' and I'm all alone
Tell me that you're with it then you say you won't
Can you make your mind up?
Please, I'm losin' my patience
You know I'm losin' my patience, yeah
I'm in your room, it's just us two
I feel you getting closer
You rest your head upon my chest
Deep down I know that this should be
The last time I come over
You always leave me such a mess
Ooh, you give me a little taste
Lure me in then you take it from me
Oh I hate that I love it
'Cause you're driving me crazy
First you say you love me then you say you don't
I wake up in the mornin' and I'm all alone
Tell me that you're with it then you say you won't
Can you make your mind up?
Please, I'm losin' my patience
You know I'm losin' my patience, yeah
And you gotta stop, if you know
So I can start letting go
'Cause it's driving me crazy
Yeah, you keep driving me crazy
When you say you love me then you say you don't
I wake up in the mornin' and I'm all alone
Tell me that you're willing then you say you won't
Yeah, you're driving me crazy
First you say you love me then you say you don't
I wake up in the mornin' and I'm all alone
Tell me that you're with it then you say you won't
Can you make your mind up?
Please, I'm losin' my patience
You know I'm losin' my patience, yeah
Please, I'm losin' my patience, yeah

By the end I realized that I was crying. So I sat down and cried.
'Why do I have to like Jake so much.'
'He doesn't like me I need to get over him.'
'Why is he so cute.'
~Time skip~
I got out and got dressed. I walked down stairs.
"Kat and Devyn can I talk to y'all?" I asked.
"Yeah what's up." They said.
"So y'all know Jake has a girlfriend right?" I asked.
"Yeah, Tara." Devyn said.
"Yeah Well I really like Jake and when I found out he had a girlfriend my heart broke and I don't know what to do because now I know for sure he doesn't like me and I just don't know what to do." I said.
"Wow." I heard Sam and Colby say. I literally cringed.
"Y'all weren't supposed to hear that." I said.
"Well we did and I wanna help." Sam said.
"Ugh fine." I said.
"So as y'all know he has a girlfriend." Colby said.
"Yeah dingus." I said and rolled my eyes.
"Oh shut up." He said.
"Anyways remember movie night when you went to sleep?" Colby said.
"Yeah." I said.
"Well he admitted to us that he liked you l." Sam said, Colby, Kat, and Devyn nodded their heads in a agreement.
"So Colby when you told me that you weren't lying?" I asked.
"No I wasn't." He said.
"Wow here I was thinking you were." I said.
"Why when I didn't even know that you liked him?" He asked.
"I don't know." I said.
"Anyways." Kat said.
"What are we going to do about Tara?" Devyn asked.
"Ugh now that he's with Tara he's not going to wanna spend time together he's gonna want to spend time with Tara." I said.

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