A/N: a story of self-discovery through fictional text messages. I just wanted this to be sort of heart-warming because that's usually what I like in life. So that's what I went for. so the "me" person is based on how I see myself as I don't any character as well as I know ..it's weird. The asking out thing was a last minute thing....well just read
11:00 PM
Me: Hey, u up?
Sky: Of course
Me: Do you ever just try to sleep and thoughts float around your head. Like they won't stop no matter what you do.
Sky: That happens to me all the time, dude
Me: It's happening to me right now
Sky: What are you thinking about, then? It helps to talk to other people, to let it all out and shit
Me: I am thinking about oblivion
Sky: What? Dude, are you okay?
Me: Yeah, I am okay. Not in the depressed sense. In the curious way. Like what will I leave behind when I am gone.
Sky: I am sure I will just leave a bunch of empty pizza boxes, dirty laundry and ton of books XD
Me: Well, that's what I am worried about. What if all I leave is just trash? People remember me as the trash girl who even in death left trash? I was thinking about what people will think of me and whatever I leave behind. What will you think of me?
Sky: It's hard to think about your death, dude. I am just gonna tell you what I think about you right now. You are a crazy chick who takes no bs from anyone. When I first met you I thought you were a very shy and naive person but boy was I wrong. You have a very dirty brain which makes me laugh about toilet humor and literal shit
Me: :)
Sky: What will you think? Of yourself?
Me: I don't know. I spend so much time thinking what other people think of me that I don't think about myself that often........I think that the person I was in life could have been better if I did not second guess myself so much
Sky: I agree with that but I don't want you to see your faults. I want to know what you think of yourself. If you were a person you were watching from say like a distance, like 24/7 reality TV l. What would you think about yourself?
...
Me: I....
Sky: Take a deep breath and think :)
Me: Well, I'll see a girl who likes to read books. A girl who was obsessed with Skyrim and fell asleep every night thinking of different AUs about Skyrim.
Sky: I was the one that got you into it and you loved it more than me
Me: Yeah....I see a girl who loves blue. A girl who is afraid of riding escalators because she fell down from one when she was six. A girl who doesn't like pink because her mother had a obsession with the color so much that every damn wall in the house was pink
Sky: I remember that...poor mister cuddles was dyed pink by your mom
Me: Yeah, at least now she is content in being her original color
Sky: and damn that cat looks cool with her natural black. And green eyes. Every time I come to your eyes she gives me grim reaper vibes
Me: XD
Me: A girl who loves to read books and the one and only who took a stack of books with her, considering them her most precious possession when a earthquake came
Sky: I remember that and you also spent quite sometime searching for your slippers while everybody else panicked
Me: Yeah and it was shame that I still didn't manage to find my slippers
