After She Knew

Chapter 82 - What about take it slow?

I don't know what possessed me last night, because I had enough self control to go my dorm and not ask him to take me to his apartment.

I know I might sound too desperate and straight to the point, but yeah, I'm keeping it real. I'm an adult - kind of - and I don't see what's bad about admitting it.

I miss having sex with him. Period.

It's not only about sex, it's about the intimacy and the caring way that he's always treated me when we used to sleep together. It's like in that moment, I'm all that matters and there's only me in his world.

I would be lying if I said that I didn't have the opportunity to do it in Italy, because I did. One of my new friends was invested in getting to know me more than just a friend, but the trip wasn't about being with someone else, it was about being with myself, so I didn't do anything and made clear to him that I wasn't interested.

Not that I would do anything, because I don't think I could have sex with someone else being in love with Noah.

Anyway, after the revelation that Noah wants to be with me as much as I want to be with him, it's like everything started to fall into place.

We both realised that we just needed to communicate with each other, otherwise we'd never find our way back and keep assuming things that aren't true.

We're so different than we were just a couple of months ago and it feels good to finally feel like we can have a healthy relationship.

Like I said to him, I still have many questions, but I know that I don't need to be anxious about any of them. They will all be answered at the right time.

The important point is that I forgave him and this time I'm sure it will work. I love him, but I love me more, so he knows that if it doesn't work, we're over for good and I'm ok with this decision.

There was this one question I had to ask after he said he still loves me though.

"So, what does this mean? Are we together again?"

"I want to say yes, but If you don't mind, I want to do this the right way. So..." he paused and I tried to follow his line of thoughts.

I smiled, finally realising what he was doing.

"Emma, will you go on a date with me?"

He looked at me like he was afraid I'd say no and I burst out laughing.

He doesn't ask me why I'm laughing like a maniac, he just frowns and keeps his eyes on me, looking serious.

After I managed to get myself together, I finally answered him.

"Yes, Noah. I'll go on a date with you."

His smile grew bigger and he cupped my face to give me a soft kiss on the lips.

''For a second, I thought you'd say no.'' He said in between kisses, his lips barely leaving my mouth.

After that, he walked me to my dorm and asked me to be ready at seven sharp today and that's why I'm here in front of my building, waiting for him to come pick me up, so we can go out.

It's amazing how things change. If you asked me just yesterday if I thought I'd be feeling butterflies because the guy I love asked me out on a date, I'd say you're out of your mind and should get some help, yet, here I am.

He made me promise not to tell Mads until we're official again, which I think we already are, but if he wants to do the whole asking romantically thing, I won't stop him.