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Sing For Me Commie

I'm a sucker for TordTom, so yes

Tom Pov:

He said he'd let me go... and he did? He told me he wasn't truthful... but he still kept his word... He left me so confused... What does it mean?

But I don't think I can live without him... He said that too... Maybe the best thing to do would be killing myself?... I don't really have a purpose anyway... but why do I shiver at the thought?

I'm with my friends again, but they aren't the same... Well I mean.. I'm not the same either.. but they don't act like they used to... I think... It's been a while.

All I can do is act like I'm happy, for them. I'm sure they missed me, but after the first year... I almost completely forgot about them. I only really remembered them in my dreams... But for some reason... I've always remembered Tords voice... Even though it almost sounds like my captures...

Was my capture a good man? Not in the slightest. Was he wise? Yes, very wise. Was he kind? He had his moments. If he told me to do something, would I do it? Yes, yes I would.

I don't love him, he told me not to. He told me if he were to ever free me, I would have two choices.

My first choice is to believe I have no purpose in life and cut my wrists in cross streaks to free myself from being useless.

Then my second choice is to find the person who cares for me the most and let them control me, then once I do, I have to do everything they say.

He degraded me to make me realize I'm a useless human. I really have no purpose, especially since I'm not in captivity anymore. He let me go for who knows what, but he must've done it for a reason... He always has a reason.

But right now, I have to try to be useful.. at least for a month or two. I have to make my childhood friends happy so they can be normal again... He.. He told me I can't be anything, but I feel like I have to try...

My smile holds so much pain, but I cannot let that stop me from showing a happy mask to make the useful ones realize they're able to do anything they wish...

As I continue my conversation with Tord, Edd, and Matt I have to make sure my body swallows the cake even when my stomach wants to throw it up while also having to make sure I don't look uncomfortable while doing it.

"Yeah we also got to ride in a helicopter on our vacation in America!" Edd says to me, enthusiastically. "We were really high!"

"Wow that's so cool!" I say to Edd as I put on a convincing smile.

He's lying.

"Yeah! I got to eat the best food ever there!" Matt says with a large smile.

He's fibbing.

"We also met some other foreign people that were also on vacation! I met some fellow Norwegians!" Tord says with a toothy but nervous grin.

You haven't met anyone like you for a long time Tord.

"Well I'm glad you guys were still having fun while I was gone! I wouldn't want you guys really sad because of me not being there!" I say with a smile as I forcefully swallow another bite of my cake.

"We were a little bit sad Tom! You are really important to us.. We just thought you went away for a while or something.." Tord says, looking down slightly.

Tord doesn't like lying to me, I can tell from his eyes.

"Five years is a long time," is what I was about to say, but I don't want to make it seem like I'm questioning them. I instead say, "Well.. At least I'm okay." I look down at my piece of cake, I managed to eat it all... But now I feel incredibly sick... "I'll be right back." I get up from my seat.