I saw you walking with him.
You looked so happy.
You look at him with such loving eyes.
I wish you would look at me that way.
But you never noticed me.
When you two get into a fight I'm always there for you.
You worry about him.
You care about him.
You love him.
But he doesn't love you.
But I love you.
If only you could see his true intentions.
Felix he doesn't care for you.
To him you're a toy.
I could treat you so much better.
We all do stupid things when we're in love.
I keep trying and trying to get over you but I just can't.
When you ask me why I don't have a boyfriend it's because I'm waiting for you.
But I can't tell you that.
I play it off as if I just don't have time.
I'm happy when we spend time together.
Recently we barely see each other.
You're never at our dorm anymore.
You stay over at his place.
Felix why can't you see how much I love you?
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"Yo Hyunjin!"
I looked over at Changbin who had called my name.
"You didn't do anything to Felix right? He's sad and I don't want to deal with his whiny ass."
"Of course not you should know what's wrong with him. He's your boyfriend after all."
"Ya! Don't talk back to me like that brat! I'm older than you."
I just ignored Changbin because I wasn't in the mood to deal with him. I could only think of Felix. Why was he sad? Is he okay? Will he be okay?
The bell signaling the end of the day rung and I left quickly to go to my dorm. I was very worried about Felix but I know that I should let him come to me.
I got to the dorms and unlocked my door and when I was inside I heard quiet sobs coming from my side of the dorm. There was only one person that came into mind that could be inside my dorm.
"Felix?"
"Hyunjinnn!!"
Felix bolted towards me when he saw me and hugged me very tightly. His face was red and tears were falling from his eyes.
"Lixie what's wrong?"
"Ch-Changbin is cheating on me."
When I heard his name and cheating in the same sentence I felt my blood boil. He was complaining about Felix being sad when he was the reason Felix was sad.
"Shh calm down baby everything will be fine."
"No it won't because I still love him!"
My heart broke into pieces hearing those words come out of Felix's mouth. Of course Felix would still love him. All I could do was just hold Felix until he feel asleep in my arms.
Why Felix?
Why him?
Why not me?
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The next day seemed like yesterday didn't happen.
You were back to your cheerful self.
You were walking with him again.
You guys were holding hands and laughing.
You still looked at him with those loving eyes.
Even after what he did you forgave him.
You still love him.
He still doesn't love you.
I still love you.
I will always love you Lee Felix.
Bye love.
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This is a short one I wrote while I'm in school. Enjoy :)
