{2} Late Night Owl

{26} one conversation

victoria pov

we got news from glizzy that raine passed away a couple days after

doctors say her respiratory system slowly just gave up on her

i stood in the mirror looking at my belly bump

nahmir came behind me zipping my dress up

" i hate funerals ".

he looked at me frowning " you talked to nature today ".

" yeah, she's really not taking this well at all ".

we just looked at each other, just pure heartbreak

i walked inside the church as my heart dropped seeing raine laying in that casket

i stumbles a little bit but caught myself " you good "? nahmir asked grabbing my hand

i nodded sitting next to jay.

nahmir and jay dapped each other up as i just sat down looking at glizzy who was sitting right in front of us.

" hey glizz ". i waved

he sniffed looking at me " hey ". he simply said

i was really trynna hold my tears n but i couldn't

i began to cry softly placing my head on nahmirs shoulder

" there she go ". jay mumbled looking back

i looked up seeing nature walking down the aisle with her parents holding both of her sides

all she did was sit down placing autumn in her lap

i gently touched her shoulder but she didn't look back

i sighed holding onto nahmirs hand

after the service we all met by a lake holding orange balloons which raine loved

" ugh i'm gonna miss her so much " . i cried

nature walked up to the podium clearing hear voice

" i- i just really wanna thank everybody for cc-coming out to celebrate the life if my beautiful daughter raine".

" we love you " ! someone yelled from the back

" this isn't easy for neither me or glizzy but we're really trynna stay strong for autumn especially". she looked over at autumn

she began to cry as glizzy walked over walking her away from the podium

i held onto nahmirs hand looking down just thinking about how any day could be our last ..

i'm gonna learn to cherish more days were i'm not as happy but at least i'm still here i'll never know when it's my time .

later on that night

i was currently on my last episode of crying..

nahmir caressed my hair as i laid on his lap watching old seasons of bad girls club

" baby you coo " ? he asked

" i'm just worried about nature ".

" you just talked to her two seconds ago ma ".

i frown " i know but she's hiding her emotions n i just wanna be there for her ".

" sometimes people just wanna be left alone and maybe she needs it ".

was nahmir right ? maybe or he just wanted me to shut up

" i miss her like she was my own ". i said

" don't we all ". he replied

he sighed " tori "?

" hm "?

" i really really need a blunt and so does glizz ".

" me too but unfortunately i'm pregnant ".

he laughed a lil getting up " i'll be back ".

" no just stay over there i don't need you driving high ".

" such a mom, but you gon be straight " ?

" yeah i'm alright just go before you end up staying ".