{2} Late Night Owl

{42} made me

nahmir pov

i sat in the car as victoria dropped brooklyn off at melody's house

" i'm sorry " i said without finishing my sentence

" for what "

i sighed sitting back , if i said this not only would it hurt me it would hurt victoria too . & i've been doing so fucking good

" baby what are you sorry for " ? she grabbed my hand

i looked at her as a tear dropped from my left eye.

never been a pussy ass nigga but this shit hurt i really didn't wanna loose shorty i want her with me forever

" nahmir what happened ? " why are you cry... "

" shorty i gotta tell you this "

i kinda let go of her hand

" tell me then " .

" i can't, i'm not ready " .

" nahmir just fucking tell me you brought it up so speak " .

" i cheate... "

" huh " ? she said cutting me off

she look at me then looked away

i knew she wasn't ready

" nahmir you what " ? she said as her voice cracked

" victoria fuck i cheated " .

she scrunched her face up looking at me as her eyes got water " and you ain't even trynna apologize " !

even if i did she wouldn't even accept it, that's just the way victoria is

" cause i know you ain't gon forgive me victoria & i'm sorry i'm begging for yo forgiveness ian never felt this way about anybody but you " .

she looked down as tears ran down her face

as much as i loved victoria i hated to see her cry

" don't cry " .

she just looked at me giving me a long ass death stare

" why... " her voice cracked

i didn't even know what to say

as much as i wanted to say something nothing would come out .

we sat there in silence until she cried even harder

she sniffed then spoke " how could you nahmir i thought we were grown by now you still on the lil kid shit i had your fucking child nahmir, i've shared everything with you i trusted you even though you've continuously broke it, whoever she is i hope she was worth it " .

she unbuckled her seatbelt knocking on melody's door again

seeing her walk out hurt me, on god
i just can't see victoria with nobody else but me & i refuse to .

i wasn't going nowhere no time soon

i sighed pulling out of the driveway not knowing where to go

couldn't call glizzy could i would just fuck everything up even more

i pulled back up to the house instantly going to the balcony to smoke about 500 blunts

i listened to some of my old music reminiscing

me: call me i'm sorry

babygirl💚: i need space right now

i was surprised she even texted me back usually she don't do that shit

maybe she's just gotten used to you but i don't want shorty to feel that way at all

i want her to feel like it's only her and it'll always be here . can't have her out her looking like my second option when she'll always be my first

victoria don't know i how much i love her & im always fucking up just doing dumb shit