Joaquin Phoenix Imagines

This is not you | Joker

{requested by KimAckermann } enjoyy💕
domestic violence is not okay...if anyone's going through this or you know of anyone going through this please help them x this is just a story there's no way I support this kind of behaviour 💕
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"He's changed"

"He's not Arthur anymore...this is truly Joker"

"Has he ever said I love you in the past...what 2 months?"

"He even forgot your birthday"

These thoughts were running through my head as I buried my face into the pillow. He hardly ever comes home...he's out all the time, leading the gang of clowns. I haven't even asked him where have you been? Don't you miss me? A-are you cheating on me? No no I can't even think of that...he would never. He loves me too much. I reassured myself as tears fell upon my face. I was awoken by the sounds off people laughing hysterically down stairs. I slowly opened the door and crept downstairs. I sat in the stairscase and looked to find a group of people with masks on laughing and giggling as Arthur demonstrated the death of Thomas Wayne...this was truly sickening...this isn't funny. I get it he hates Thomas Wayne... I get it Thomas Wayne isn't that good guy...I get it. But making fun of his death isn't it...this is wrong. I sighed as I made my way downstairs. I ignored what they were doing and I grabbed a glass of water. As I made my way back to my room I noticed them all turn their head slowly and fix their eyes on me. This crept me out. I noticed Arthur, no Joker walking up to me.
"I missed you" he said as he hugged me
I frowned...I didn't hug back because this didn't feel right
He then looked at me in confusion and anger
"What's wrong?" He asked
"N-Nothing" I smiled
He stood there looking at me
"Fine" he said as he broke the silence
I made my way into my bedroom and closed the door from behind. I heard them all leaving. I thought Arth-Joker would've left with them. Mistakenly I made my way back downstairs so I could get something to eat because I haven't eaten anything for the whole day. As I opened the fridge I felt a tap on my shoulder which caused me to flinch
"Oh my gosh" I screamed as I held onto my chest
"Y-you scared me" I said
Joker leaned in and kissed me, I couldn't bring myself to kiss him back. It just didn't feel right. He got angry and pushed me back.
"WHY ARE YOU BEHAVING LIKE THIS" he screamed
"I'm not doing anything" I cried backing myself into the wall
"It's like you're not even inlove with me anymore" he said as his voice broke
"N-no it's not that" I whispered
"THEN WHAT IS IT?" He screamed as he threw everything on the table with his arm
"I-I don't know" I cried
He stood there and came closer to me
"You're seeing someone else right?" He sighed as he held me from the shoulders
"N-no I'm not" I said as I couldn't believe him accusing me!
He shook his head and grabbed me from the neck and pulled me closer
"Don't lie to me" he growled
"I promise" I cried
He let go of me and walked out the door. I wiped my tears from my face and decided to clean the apartment up...as I was setting the hovering the carpet...his questioned recalled in my head...was I seeing someone else? What made him think that...maybe because I wouldn't kiss him back. It's because I don't see Arthur...I feel Arthur but I also feel Joker. Arthur's disappearing. As I was done cleaning the living and kitchen I decided to go back to bed. Then the door slammed opened causing me to look back. It was Joker...he was drunk and stumbling towards the living room. He bumped into the chair...he picked the chair up and said sorry to it. I couldn't help but to giggle...that was what Arthur would've said. I sighed. Then I heard him scream my name. I made my way towards him. He fixed his eyes onto me and pulled me closer.
"You love me right?" He asked as I could smell the strong alcohol coming from him
I nodded my head
"SPEAK!" He yelled as he shook me violently
"JOKER STOP" I yelled back in pain
He threw me to the ground...in that moment I ran towards the stairs then I felt someone hold onto me leg and yank me down.
"J-joker you're hurting me" I cried
He laughed hysterically and grabbed me from my hair.
"Y-you're cheating me! It's so fucking obvious" he whispered
"I'm not" I screamed
He let go of me and walked around in circles!
"ITS LIKE YOU DONT EVEN WANT ME TO TOUCH YOU"
I rolled my eyes
"WATCH" he said as he smashed his lips onto mine kissing me passionately...I didn't kiss back...I wanted to but I just couldn't bring myself too...it didn't feel right. He pulled away and kicked the door.
"SEE" he screamed
"Alright! I've had enough" I said as I ran to the bedroom slamming the door shut
Joker screamed at me!
"OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR BITCH"
"No you'll kill me!" I cried
"OPEN THE DOOR NOW OR YOULL REGRET IT!"
In that moment I was afraid that the door was going to break...I hid under the bed.
The door broke...my heart began pounding harder
"Y/n!" He screamed
I couldn't help but to cry... then I began choking because I had grabbed my mouth shut for too long. He heard me choke and yanked me from underneath the bed from my arm.
He hovered over me and cried
"You don't love me anymore do you?"
"I do"
"NO YOU DONT" he slowly closed his eyes and fell onto me. He just fainted. I slowly held up and placed him onto the bed. I took this opportunity to wipe his makeup off...I excitedly grabbed wipes and began gently wiping his makeup off...but this was clown makeup this was difficult to rub off. But I tried and eventually after 15 minutes all the makeup was gone. His neck and his whole face was clean. I happily kissed him cheek. This was Arthur I haven't seen his face in ages. Let alone the green hair was still there... I couldn't touch that. He was going to kill me if I tried to remove the colour. I appreciated his bare face. I kissed him on the lips and cuddle up with Arthur. I woke up to someone shouting my name. I awoke to find Joker...he had his clown face back on which caused me to groan.
"Did you take my makeup off last night?" He asked
I stood up
"Yes" I said
"WHY DID YOU DO THAT"
"Because I don't like your clown face" I said then instantly regretting what I said
With that Joker slapped me hard against my face causing me to fall to the ground. Did he just hit me? I couldn't believe it. I looked up at him as I held my face.
"DONT EVER DISRESPECT ME YOU WHORE!" He yelled as he held me up and pinned me to the wall
"You're the worst person in the world" I whispered
With that Joker grabbed my hair and pulled me closer to him
"I know I am" he whispered
"You're right...I am seeing someone else" I said
Jokers eyes widened as he threw me to the ground.
"You wanna know his name?" I asked
He held onto my leg and pulled me closer to me. He hovered over me...I could see the pain in his eyes.
"His name is Arthur...he was here last night in my bed" I smirked he slowly let go knowing that Arthur was him...
"Arthur and You are two completely different people but in the same body" I said as I stood up
He noticed the bruise he caused that was displayed on my cheek. He stood up and hugged me...crying.
"I-I DONT know what wrong with me y/n"
I hugged him back