Joaquin Phoenix Imagines

Pain - Joker

You wanted to break up with Joker ...why?

Because he knows that you love him and you know deep down that somewhere in his cold heart he has a place for you but he doesn't know how to show it.

He will only show it through lust.

Never has he ever said ' I love you' it's always

'Babe when are we gonna fuck'

For an example; a lot of the times when you wake up you find a note beside your bed that always reads

"You better be ready by tonight"

You thought he loved you until you heard him saying to his members that

"I do not fall in love i do not believe in love i only believe in lust and pleasure" 

at this point you were thinking...I truly am just a fuck toy to him?

He's never shown his soft side to you. It's always been rough, arm grabbing, ass slapping. That's all. Not abuse...but it's just...complicated.

When you called it quiets...this happened;
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You were pacing around your room thinking to yourself

"How do I tell him?"

You stopped and flinched since you felt arms around your waist.

You turned around to find Joker...

"Did I scare you?"

"N-no" you giggled

"Hmmm" he growled into your ear as he held you close abd threw you on his bed.

You knew your moves were to stroke his penis

You began doing what you were meant to but as you were doing; you failed to hide the pain and sorrow that was heavily displayed on your face.

Joker stopped you and zipped himself up and lifted your chin.

"Youre not smiling" he said

"Yeah"

"Whats wrong?"

You sighed as you looked into his eyes

"Do you love me?" I asked

Jokers eyes widned as he cleared his throat.

"I want the truth" i added

"No i dont love you"

You felt pain but yet again it was quickly rinsed by the doubts you had earlier and you were not surprised

"Then why do you keep me here then? Why dont you just let me go?"

"Dont feel so special...youre not the only girl that stays here"

"But for this long?"

"Okay and whats your point?" He chuckled

"I thought you loved me" you replied as you were about to cry

Joker sighed

"Well i dont" he said as he looked down

"I wanna break up then"

"Whats there to break when there was nothing there" he said

You felt hurt and betrayed

"Fine" you cried as you stormed outside of his mansion and walked out.

It began to rain, you werent bothered

You decided to go back to your old apartment.

You entered your old apartment and turned on the heating

You promised yourself to never see or even think about him again.

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3 months later
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You were sleeping peacefully on your bed until you heard knocking coming from the door. You awoke and saw the time...it was 2 am...

You walked over the door and looked through the peep hole to see Joker .... alone.

"Y/n?" He sighed as his voice cracked a bit

"Y-yeah?"

"I-i know that i have not been the best person but to be honest i have never ever felt or seen true love towards anyone but you" he sighed against the door

You tried your hardest not to cry

"Thats the reason why i kept you with me for so long,you are so different from the rest, theres so much love and care in you that i felt like keeping you away from everyone and keeping you just for myself"

"I remember coming home and seeing you all excited and happy and it was obvious that you just wanted to cuddle and kiss but I'd always ruin that by shouting at you or just having rough sex and leaving you"

"I hear....i hear rumours all the time that recently you are seeing someone and i can not bear that...but who am i? I hurt you and i couldnt give you that true love and honesty that you truly deserve"

"Please please forgive me...i wish that guy could be me...i just know that i have fallen in love with you but it made me weak"

You opened the door and hugged him tight

He held you and came face to face with you

"I love you" he said

You smiled and kissed him

"I love you too"