the beneficial accident

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JOHNNYS POV

"come on john you have to get out of bed" lauren whines dragging me by the arms

"there's no point. she's never going to forgive me."

"i'm sorry but i won't listen to you bitch about it all day you need to do something about this before we both loose our minds" she snaps at me lightly slapping my cheek

"listen" she continues "kenz is really upset right now but i think i know how i can get her out of her room. the rest is up to you, can you handle that pretty boy?" she teases me and i roll my eyes

"i'll manage" i scoff throwing on a random dirty t-shirt and walking down the stairs while lauren made a 'very important phone call' to brynn

KENZIES POV

"get your butt up right now" my blonde haired best friend orders climbing through my window

i just stare at her blankly not moving a muscle

"no" i deadpan

"come on i think a walk will be good for you. you have been sitting in your room engulfing snacks and watching movies. fresh air always feels nice" she pleads

i stare out the window and into the rainy sky. she was right, fresh air always made me one hundred times better when i was a kid. but i still couldn't bring myself to get up

"ya know since your not saying anything i'm going to take that as a yes." she cheers and yanks me out of the safety of my comfortable bed, throws a hoodie on me, and shoves me out the door.

i turn around to protest but before i can get a word out brynn slams the door in my face and yells "walks are always a good idea" then locks the front door

i roll my eyes and trudge my feet slowly making progress. i breathe in the scent of the roads filled with rain and stick out my tongue to try and catch raindrops on my tongue.

i really did need this and it felt nice

it was a really great escape and it helped me forget everything happening, that was until i saw the very boy who created this whole mess and shattered my heart, standing five feet away from me.

my heart beats out of my chest and i panic and i try to figure out what to do.

do i run away, do pretend like i didn't see him, or do i man up and slap him in the face. i was quickly running out of options for he was now standing right in front of me and my feet froze into the concrete. i wanted so bad to run away, but something made me stay right where i was.

"kenzie" he starts and reaches for my hands as i pull them away in a fast motion "i just want to explain myself"

"no!" i yell at his face "you don't get to explain i don't want to hear anything you have to say"

"please kenz i didn't mean any of what i said today i wasn't thinking and my teammates were pressuring me, but you are so import-" he starts before i cut him off

"stop you don't get to play the victim here. your teammates may be dicks but the things you said, you said them all out of your own free will. nobody made you call me a loser you did that all by urself because you are a disgusting person" i spat in his face as tears form in not only my eyes, but johnnys too

"i know that i messed up and i should have never said what i did but please let me make it up to you" he begs as a tear falls down his cheek

i choke back my tears trying not to show him how much he truly hurt me

"there's nothing you can say or do to make me ever feel what i used to feel for you"

"please" he cry's

"no you disgust me" i fire back and he hiccups a little as the cold rain pours down on the two of us

i stand tall, not backing down, and not showing weakness.

while he slumps over crying softly begging me to forgive him. i stare at him for a little longer. don't break mackenzie. you can't do it. he hurt you. more than your mother ever could. do not let him break you.

my mind wanders all kinds of places and before i can even register what i am doing, my legs are taking me in the opposite direction of the broken boy.

i can hear him run after me calling my name

"kenzie!" he pleads "please"

i turn around to see him gaining on me his wet t-shirt weighing him down and his dirty blonde hair flopping in front of his face. why did i have to be slow unathletic.

he sprints a little faster and steps right in front of my dull body, cutting me off

"leave me alone" i scream at him as the crys softly

"don't do this" he begs "i made a mistake but we belong together"

"no we don't, i belong with someone who will treat me right"

"i will treat you right, from now on it will be you and you, i don't care what the boys think. please don't fight this" he says his voice breaking

my heart drops as i begin to soften. no stop it kenzie. you need to toughen up.

"your a liar" i yell at him

"kenzie" he whispers so softly i could barely hear it

"i don't ever want to see your face again" i yell once more preparing myself for what i was about to do next

"don't do this" he begs again

i take a deep breath emotionally getting ready for what needed to be done. i close my eyes and blink back the tears before opening them once more and staring him straight in the eye

"i hate you" i say lowly backing away from him

his bloodshot eyes tear away from his feet and his mouth quivers

"you don't mean that" his voice was small and weak, just above a whisper, as he stepped closer to me with pleading eyes

"yes i do." i shout for the last time my voice shaky as i turn around and sprint away from him for the second time. only this time he didn't follow me.

instead he fell to the ground holding his head and silently sobbing into his hands.

the pain and heartache i felt only grew more and more the further i ran away and the smaller his faint figure became, until he was out of sight, and i was all alone.

sofie speaks
i apologize for i have sinned.
it needed to be done
#sorrynotsorry
tune in tuesday's at 10
o'clock to see what will happen on
"the beneficial accident" jk
but like on a real note, how did you
like this chapter?

!ATTENTION!: also i have a serious question: are ya'll on johnnys side of kenzies? (please answer i want to know)

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